Assalamu Alikum
dear brothers and sisters, i have few questions in my mind which needs to be answered.
I was born and brought up as a muslim , i had recieved formal education in the madrassa, I had strong islamic feelings and used to offer namaz and fast in the month of ramadhan. all my family members are very pious and lead a good life. i am a medical student and i am also a person who is suffering from depression for the past 12 years and is on treatment. all the episodes of my depression were associated with exam - the fear of failure and performing well bothered me. i used to pray to allah to give me good physical and mental health ,mainly mental health, but in my final exam , when i was so close to achieve my dream - i had severe depression . i felt like committing suicide due to sheer hopelessness and attempted it 5 times !! (though none was successful) . since that episode , strong anti iman beliefs are gong in my mind. my mind convinced me there is no Allah and even if u committ suicide , nothing is going to happen. so do it etc, and before committing suicide , i went to a whore and had a physical relation. My exams were all very badly performed , i ran away from the clinical exam hall thrice ! i was totally scared , anxious and depressed. Now i am sure i am going to fail in my exam. So my questions are
1. What is the proof for existence of God ? How do u strongly believe in an unseen , unheard God ?
2. Why am i having this depression in association with exam ? even the non believers and muslims who dont offer namaz dont have this sort of anxiety about exam ? why god (if present ) is so ungrateful to me ??
3. Why should i pray to a God who doesnt answer my prayers ? I dont ask god for money , power or prestige. I JUST ASK FOR PEACE OF MIND
4. What is the logic in praying to a God who doesnt answer your prayers(prayer here is for mental health , nothing else) ? is int like praying to an Idol in the way hindus do ??
5. What is this Qadr , many say i am having all this problem due to lack of iman and belief in qadr. I find it ridiculous- the concept of Qadr. Allah has pre determined everything, he knows who will be in heaven and hell. All had been pre written, Then what is the logic in this so called TESTING. Isnt it kind of playing a FIXED MATCH ?? God is being cruel towards all the non muslims by making them not to believe and leading them to hell !!
PLEASE ANSWER WITH CONVINCING PROOF
dear brothers and sisters, i have few questions in my mind which needs to be answered.
I was born and brought up as a muslim , i had recieved formal education in the madrassa, I had strong islamic feelings and used to offer namaz and fast in the month of ramadhan. all my family members are very pious and lead a good life. i am a medical student and i am also a person who is suffering from depression for the past 12 years and is on treatment. all the episodes of my depression were associated with exam - the fear of failure and performing well bothered me. i used to pray to allah to give me good physical and mental health ,mainly mental health, but in my final exam , when i was so close to achieve my dream - i had severe depression . i felt like committing suicide due to sheer hopelessness and attempted it 5 times !! (though none was successful) . since that episode , strong anti iman beliefs are gong in my mind. my mind convinced me there is no Allah and even if u committ suicide , nothing is going to happen. so do it etc, and before committing suicide , i went to a whore and had a physical relation. My exams were all very badly performed , i ran away from the clinical exam hall thrice ! i was totally scared , anxious and depressed. Now i am sure i am going to fail in my exam. So my questions are
1. What is the proof for existence of God ? How do u strongly believe in an unseen , unheard God ?
2. Why am i having this depression in association with exam ? even the non believers and muslims who dont offer namaz dont have this sort of anxiety about exam ? why god (if present ) is so ungrateful to me ??
3. Why should i pray to a God who doesnt answer my prayers ? I dont ask god for money , power or prestige. I JUST ASK FOR PEACE OF MIND
4. What is the logic in praying to a God who doesnt answer your prayers(prayer here is for mental health , nothing else) ? is int like praying to an Idol in the way hindus do ??
5. What is this Qadr , many say i am having all this problem due to lack of iman and belief in qadr. I find it ridiculous- the concept of Qadr. Allah has pre determined everything, he knows who will be in heaven and hell. All had been pre written, Then what is the logic in this so called TESTING. Isnt it kind of playing a FIXED MATCH ?? God is being cruel towards all the non muslims by making them not to believe and leading them to hell !!
PLEASE ANSWER WITH CONVINCING PROOF
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