Some very troubling things have been happening to me in the past months.
I keep getting very disturbing thoughts which I cannot control. It's like something is implanting it in my head. I would never think these thoughts. They are very horrible thoughts about Islam and Allah which I would rather not describe the contents of and it seems to get worse and almost unbearable late at night. I can't suppress these thoughts no matter what. Sometimes they are weak and sometimes extremely strong and persistent.
Right After salat I get headaches and I feel rather irritable and especially sleepy. The thoughts also terrorize me in salat and this disturbs prayer greatly. I am reluctant to pray anymore at times because of these thoughts and feel like my prayer is nullified and Allah won't accept it. I don't mean these thoughts at all! They keep coming into my head.
I find it very hard to concentrate and often procrastinate in school work. I'm failing nearly all my classes now in college and I don't know what to do. This is also because of the distress the thoughts are causing me.
What is happening to me? I feel very scared and this is the darkest point in my life. Will I be punished for these thoughts. I truly don't mean them and never will. They are very irrational, but they won't leave me alone and it's really getting impacting everything in life negatively. How can I stop these thoughts and why do I feel so sluggish and bad after praying? Any help would be appreciated
I keep getting very disturbing thoughts which I cannot control. It's like something is implanting it in my head. I would never think these thoughts. They are very horrible thoughts about Islam and Allah which I would rather not describe the contents of and it seems to get worse and almost unbearable late at night. I can't suppress these thoughts no matter what. Sometimes they are weak and sometimes extremely strong and persistent.
Right After salat I get headaches and I feel rather irritable and especially sleepy. The thoughts also terrorize me in salat and this disturbs prayer greatly. I am reluctant to pray anymore at times because of these thoughts and feel like my prayer is nullified and Allah won't accept it. I don't mean these thoughts at all! They keep coming into my head.
I find it very hard to concentrate and often procrastinate in school work. I'm failing nearly all my classes now in college and I don't know what to do. This is also because of the distress the thoughts are causing me.
What is happening to me? I feel very scared and this is the darkest point in my life. Will I be punished for these thoughts. I truly don't mean them and never will. They are very irrational, but they won't leave me alone and it's really getting impacting everything in life negatively. How can I stop these thoughts and why do I feel so sluggish and bad after praying? Any help would be appreciated
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