Originally posted by aa_
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Don’t think I want to live life sober given my life situation right now. I’m done being right in the head and feeling pain and sadness. And prayer is not a drug, it’s a 2-5 minute exercise. I’ll admit alcohol is destructive and forbidden, but if done in moderation, can mitigate some of its destruction. Same with marijuana. If these Western Muslims can turn up every now and then, mingle, break the rules, keep up some of the other religious obligations, and still be happier and more successful than me, then I might follow suit.
I might sober up indefinitely when my career prospects improve and am closing in for marriage. Until then, it’s just pain. I want to be numb while searching for solutions for my problems, not sober, with no outlet, and perpetually in anger. Maybe it’s an admission of potentially sinning that I’m doing, maybe it’s not. All I know is that this religion is much easier when you’re settled and have no time for foolery. I’m not at that stage yet.
I might sober up indefinitely when my career prospects improve and am closing in for marriage. Until then, it’s just pain. I want to be numb while searching for solutions for my problems, not sober, with no outlet, and perpetually in anger. Maybe it’s an admission of potentially sinning that I’m doing, maybe it’s not. All I know is that this religion is much easier when you’re settled and have no time for foolery. I’m not at that stage yet.
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