salaam
I have this issue...Like i have said before i have 1muslim parent 1christian parent
and Alhamdulia the Christian side seems a tiny bit over the fact I'm not christian for now that is.
But i feel like the more i live amongst them i will become more of a bad Muslim.. Some people are so MashAllah on the deen they can hit the masjid up.. Can get help bettering themselves in the deen..no judgments..I seriously feel like family/family friends are gossiping about me...I dnt go to family/friend parties anymore I dnt wanna see these people..I even wonder wut they are saying about me back home if they know lol
And Both my Muslim/Christian parents are no help.. they are divorced and dnt even like each other..nor do i wish to involve them..I feel they should just shhh and stay in the background... rather then get me upset start a fight and give me a headache plus get me even more confused..I seriously don't want to hear there advise or even a word.. Because
this is there fault..why did they just not marry people they had something in common
with!!! Then have me an try and feed me one religion while the other whispers something else to me.. oh and let's not talk about trashing of each others faith infront me of me..To the point of me as a child once asking Allah and Jesus something to see what one is real SMH. And then now as a young Adult trying to play a psychological game of your not my child dnt speak to me..this that... I could write a book but i shall stop.. srry about
punctuation I'm on mobile phone
but my question is most people are telling omg sis miskeena just get married..what do you guys think bad idea or not.I'm young i guess but i dont know anymore wallahi no joke i don't know.. I feel like I'm in some weird story i don't know i give up now... And it
makes me so angry to see Muslim with TWO Muslim parents not using the blessing they have i wish i had that wallah i do..Muslimahs saying I dnt wanna wear hijab atleast u can.. so many things u can do i can't and you waste it away..can you believe i had one Muslim parent yet Wallah i taught myself some Quran I taught myself salah myself
myself while I had a muslim parent...srry if I sound bitter but this makes me angry and not happy...wallah i feel like i don't know anymore.. I'm young i don't know this world like my elders know it Wallah i love my family and all but im not happy with the choices
they made.. But i can't change that it is what it is u know.. I just have to trust in Allah and maybe my Ummah Family can advise me.. I dont like burdening my family nor friends so you guys are my only people i can talk to...plus other people will just judge me or my family and look at me like im some disease trust me i know from experience
And these ppl always seem to think I'm happy aww always smiling and happy more like it's better to laugh then dwell on your issues..Alhamdulia i try most of the time to look on the bright side
Who ever took the time to read thanks..srry if I sound whiny
I have this issue...Like i have said before i have 1muslim parent 1christian parent
and Alhamdulia the Christian side seems a tiny bit over the fact I'm not christian for now that is.
But i feel like the more i live amongst them i will become more of a bad Muslim.. Some people are so MashAllah on the deen they can hit the masjid up.. Can get help bettering themselves in the deen..no judgments..I seriously feel like family/family friends are gossiping about me...I dnt go to family/friend parties anymore I dnt wanna see these people..I even wonder wut they are saying about me back home if they know lol
And Both my Muslim/Christian parents are no help.. they are divorced and dnt even like each other..nor do i wish to involve them..I feel they should just shhh and stay in the background... rather then get me upset start a fight and give me a headache plus get me even more confused..I seriously don't want to hear there advise or even a word.. Because
this is there fault..why did they just not marry people they had something in common
with!!! Then have me an try and feed me one religion while the other whispers something else to me.. oh and let's not talk about trashing of each others faith infront me of me..To the point of me as a child once asking Allah and Jesus something to see what one is real SMH. And then now as a young Adult trying to play a psychological game of your not my child dnt speak to me..this that... I could write a book but i shall stop.. srry about
punctuation I'm on mobile phone
but my question is most people are telling omg sis miskeena just get married..what do you guys think bad idea or not.I'm young i guess but i dont know anymore wallahi no joke i don't know.. I feel like I'm in some weird story i don't know i give up now... And it
makes me so angry to see Muslim with TWO Muslim parents not using the blessing they have i wish i had that wallah i do..Muslimahs saying I dnt wanna wear hijab atleast u can.. so many things u can do i can't and you waste it away..can you believe i had one Muslim parent yet Wallah i taught myself some Quran I taught myself salah myself
myself while I had a muslim parent...srry if I sound bitter but this makes me angry and not happy...wallah i feel like i don't know anymore.. I'm young i don't know this world like my elders know it Wallah i love my family and all but im not happy with the choices
they made.. But i can't change that it is what it is u know.. I just have to trust in Allah and maybe my Ummah Family can advise me.. I dont like burdening my family nor friends so you guys are my only people i can talk to...plus other people will just judge me or my family and look at me like im some disease trust me i know from experience
And these ppl always seem to think I'm happy aww always smiling and happy more like it's better to laugh then dwell on your issues..Alhamdulia i try most of the time to look on the bright side
Who ever took the time to read thanks..srry if I sound whiny
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