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    Selaam Alaikum Brother and Sisters

    It's taken a while to build up the courage to wright this and I know I will weep as I do.

    First of all just my background

    I was a owner builder so I bought houses fixed them and resold to make money to feed my family and I also ran a few businesses with my wonderfull revert wife that I have now been with for more then 23 years humdullilah. I have a 16 year old son and a 21 year old duaghter. My 16 year old son has since left school and is now running his own business MashAllah and is succeeding. My duaghter I am currently unaware what is going on which brings me to why I am here writting this.

    Going back about 2 years ago my duaghter had met a young Muslim brother and took liking to him. Next thing I knew I met this boy once my phone rang 3 weeks later and the shiek was on the phone asking for my permission to marry my duaghter off to this young Muslim man. As a father I refused firstl then my duaghter got on the phone and cried and begged then the young man got on the phone and said wether I agreed or not he was going ahead with the marrige anyway.

    I asked the young man if he was stable enough to look after my duaghter and he said yes. He also told me that he was renting a house where he was taking my duaghter to live. I didn't ask him if he prayed or visited the masjid etc as I already asked him all these things on the day that he visited my home prior.

    So with only one hour warning I agreed to my duaghter getting married as I really didn't want my duaghter living in zina or her marrige not being blessed. From my heart I didn't want this to happen. I always saw my self being at my daughters wedding even tho I lived a hour and half away and I was only given a hour warning before the wedding. So my presence of being needed as a father was only on the phone. Subhaan Allah

    Soon after I had found out that this young brother was actually a cocane drug dealer and a typical young wannabe Lebanese gangster that took my duaghters hand in marrige and put her in his mother house. I also found out the circle of people he hung around was all the same type of people in and out of jail for drugs and murder etc.

    I also found out that he had been seeing my duaghter for allot longer then what I knew of. In fact my duaghter was so stupid that she went and bought a car for him under a loan. Of course that loan was never paid and the car was smashed up and lost. But that was OK becuase it was my duaghters name and she was going to claim bankruptcy so she didn't care. She didn't care that much that she let him talk her into selling her own car for 14,000 which all went in the poker machine at there local club. Yes with a hijab in a club pushing them free spin buttons. But Mr Gangster wasn't finished yet as he wanted the latest Audi.In fact a $80.000 Audi and who paid for it.

    You guessed it my Daughter

    A few months later my duaghter woke up to herself and decided to come home. When she came home she admitted the drugs, the gambling, hitting her if she looked out of the car window, hanging around other idiots just like him.

    This is when the real problem started. One that I will now have to live with for the rest of my life. I was at the back of my home when I herd my son 14 at the time screaming out for me in a distressed way. I knew somthing was not right and ran towards the front of our home. There I saw my duaghters half Witt so called husband trying to take the car that she bought and was paying for. So with the axe in my hand for self defence becuase I know what this piece of crap is like I dragged him out of my duaghters car so he couldn't steal it. He then punch me straight in the eye smashing my glasses of my face. I then herd a car skid and 3 to 4 other guys jump out of the car and started attacking me with steel bars. I did the best I could to defend my self but with only a axe I feared the worst if I had hit one of them and really did not want the blood of another Muslims murder on my hands even tho when they were striking they where trying to hit my head. Murder was there intention. When I finally dropped to one knee I did turn the axe around after receiving 2 hits to the neck and hit the biggest baboon in the knee. As soon as I did they all backed off and ran towards there car.

    Police where then Called and they cuaght them not to far from my home. 3 weeks later my duaghter decided to Run away back to him and police dropped all charges as my duaghter my main witness turned against me.

    Subhaan Allah, as a result fracture in my neck and ruptured t12 disk in my lower back. I am currently on 800mg of Celebrex, 2 Panadine Forte every 4 hours, 50mg of Fentanyl patches and moving up to 75mg. Fentanyl is suppose to be about ten times stronger then morphine.so brothers and sisters you could imagine and to top it all off 120mg of cymbalta for the depression I have suffered from trying to understand all this.

    I have gone from building houses and running businesses to screaming in pain everytime I say Allah Akbar. Don't get me wrong my imam was always strong and I didn't just start making salat becuase of what I'm going through. It's quite the opposite now I can hardly wake up from all the drugs I'm on or find it very hard becuase of all the pain I'm in.

    Now the worst part is. This is not the first time. This is the second time my duaghter has done this to me. The first time I was stabbed on the left side of my head and 5mm under my right eye. This is my duaghters 2nd marrige.

    I have since sold all my properties and have moved 600km away from where my duaghter lives with my wonderfull wife and successful son that Allah had blessed me with. Even tho I can never work again and live a normal life I have finally found some peace. My duaghter has since visited me twice at our new home and has tried to make me forgive her husband but to be honest my stomach turns everytime I here his name as he has crippled my life. My duaghter has begged me to forgive him but the truth is I have not found it inside me to even forgive her. The stress that she has put my wife and my son into is unbelievable as now my wife suffers allot of depression. The depression got so hard for my son that he left school but as I said earlier runs his own business now.

    The doctors have told me that the condition that my back and neck is in I could be bound to a wheel chair with in the ten year mark. I am only 40 years old ATM. Every night I am in that much pain that it shoots down both the back of my legs and up to my head all the way to the back of my eyes. I have seen that many doctors and specialist and tried that much medication that my stomach had started to bleed and I was vomiting blood. The pain gets that bad somtimes that I feel death would be my only cure. inshaAllah one day I could just wake up and feel no more pain but I know that will never happen. At the end of Ramadan my duaghter called me for eid to say eid mubareck, I hung up the phone and texted her never to call or text me again. Through Ramadan I couldn't even fast, while she cooked all day for her husband I laid there in tears from the pain and the depression that I couldn't fast. I was ripping at my hair and asking Allah why. What have I done wrong to my duaghter for her to be able to sleep next to the man that almost killed her own father. How can she even look into the eyes of the man that has cuased so much pain for the father that wanted to protect her. Ya Allah help me understand. How can she tell me I have to forgive him so that I am rewarded in the here after. Subhaan Allah how can she even smile while I cry trying to make wodu and I can't even finish it yet drop to my hands and knees for my creator. How can I live knowing the one I tried to protect turned to the one I tried to protect from and left me allone shattered trying to understand what I did wrong.

    Honestly I know life is hard and I know there are allot of brothers and sisters in worse conditions then my own. But like this ?

    Can anyone relate ?

    I don't know what else to say just some guidence if anyone has for my wife that has to look after me with her own problems as a mother that also lost her own duaghter. I don't know maybe she comes here and says a few things also.


    May Allah Guide Us All InshaAllah

  • #2
    Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

    السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

    Can anobody relate? I think not brother.

    I am truly sorry to learn of your pain, and I cannot believe it. And I'm not sure what you are expecting either because there's not much I can say to that.

    But you know Ayyub had been abandoned by all who knew him and was dependent upon his wife until even she, after suffering impatience, was ordered to leave him. But he bore his trials with patience and that is why Allah referred to him as 'patient' in the Qur'an.
    So of course, you can be patient too and by this means earn the favour of Allah

    Your daughter is a disgrace and I am sorry you were dealt with such a woman as that as a daughter.

    I cannot say anymore really except that I pray Allah makes a way out for you and may He ease your burdens, ameen.

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    • #3
      Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

      Originally posted by srahman33 View Post
      I cannot say anymore really except that I pray Allah makes a way out for you and may He ease your burdens, ameen.
      Ameen.
      [MENTION=136563]Samyesh[/MENTION] I am so so sorry to learn of your pain, your words made me cry. I can't even imagine how hard it can be for you. I am a daughter as well, and I can't understand how your daughter is making you suffer this way. I don't know what to say.

      You, what do you want from your heart? To keep in touch with her? To never hear from her again?

      It seems clear that she doesn't want to leave her abusive husband who was about to kill you.
      I don't know how she could forgive him for what he did.

      Is she aware of the situation she is in?
      Maybe her husband threatens her to not to leave him?

      Can your wife talk to her and make her reason about that evil man she decided to share the life with?

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      • #4
        Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

        :wswrwb:

        I can't relate to your situation, but this is really sad to read. I pray that Allah heals you and your family physically and mentally so that you can live without all this pain and depression, ameen.

        I can't see how this could possibly be your fault. What she did is completely inexcusable, especially since this isn't the first time. Don't beat yourself up over what she did wrong. Maybe she'll grow up and be a better daughter once she has children of her own.

        May Allah bless you and your wife, ameen
        Narrated Anas:
        The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "None of you will have faith till he wishes for his (Muslim) brother what he likes for himself." [Bukhari]

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        • #5
          Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

          :salams: I would be in prison or dead if I were in that situation.
          How can she even look into the eyes of the man that has cuased so much pain for the father that wanted to protect her
          Subhan'Allah!
          Believe none of what you hear, and only half of what you see.

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          • #6
            Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

            Originally posted by Samyesh View Post
            Selaam Alaikum Brother and Sisters

            It's taken a while to build up the courage to wright this and I know I will weep as I do.

            First of all just my background

            I was a owner builder so I bought houses fixed them and resold to make money to feed my family and I also ran a few businesses with my wonderfull revert wife that I have now been with for more then 23 years humdullilah. I have a 16 year old son and a 21 year old duaghter. My 16 year old son has since left school and is now running his own business MashAllah and is succeeding. My duaghter I am currently unaware what is going on which brings me to why I am here writting this.

            Going back about 2 years ago my duaghter had met a young Muslim brother and took liking to him. Next thing I knew I met this boy once my phone rang 3 weeks later and the shiek was on the phone asking for my permission to marry my duaghter off to this young Muslim man. As a father I refused firstl then my duaghter got on the phone and cried and begged then the young man got on the phone and said wether I agreed or not he was going ahead with the marrige anyway.

            I asked the young man if he was stable enough to look after my duaghter and he said yes. He also told me that he was renting a house where he was taking my duaghter to live. I didn't ask him if he prayed or visited the masjid etc as I already asked him all these things on the day that he visited my home prior.

            So with only one hour warning I agreed to my duaghter getting married as I really didn't want my duaghter living in zina or her marrige not being blessed. From my heart I didn't want this to happen. I always saw my self being at my daughters wedding even tho I lived a hour and half away and I was only given a hour warning before the wedding. So my presence of being needed as a father was only on the phone. Subhaan Allah

            Soon after I had found out that this young brother was actually a cocane drug dealer and a typical young wannabe Lebanese gangster that took my duaghters hand in marrige and put her in his mother house. I also found out the circle of people he hung around was all the same type of people in and out of jail for drugs and murder etc.

            I also found out that he had been seeing my duaghter for allot longer then what I knew of. In fact my duaghter was so stupid that she went and bought a car for him under a loan. Of course that loan was never paid and the car was smashed up and lost. But that was OK becuase it was my duaghters name and she was going to claim bankruptcy so she didn't care. She didn't care that much that she let him talk her into selling her own car for 14,000 which all went in the poker machine at there local club. Yes with a hijab in a club pushing them free spin buttons. But Mr Gangster wasn't finished yet as he wanted the latest Audi.In fact a $80.000 Audi and who paid for it.

            You guessed it my Daughter

            A few months later my duaghter woke up to herself and decided to come home. When she came home she admitted the drugs, the gambling, hitting her if she looked out of the car window, hanging around other idiots just like him.

            This is when the real problem started. One that I will now have to live with for the rest of my life. I was at the back of my home when I herd my son 14 at the time screaming out for me in a distressed way. I knew somthing was not right and ran towards the front of our home. There I saw my duaghters half Witt so called husband trying to take the car that she bought and was paying for. So with the axe in my hand for self defence becuase I know what this piece of crap is like I dragged him out of my duaghters car so he couldn't steal it. He then punch me straight in the eye smashing my glasses of my face. I then herd a car skid and 3 to 4 other guys jump out of the car and started attacking me with steel bars. I did the best I could to defend my self but with only a axe I feared the worst if I had hit one of them and really did not want the blood of another Muslims murder on my hands even tho when they were striking they where trying to hit my head. Murder was there intention. When I finally dropped to one knee I did turn the axe around after receiving 2 hits to the neck and hit the biggest baboon in the knee. As soon as I did they all backed off and ran towards there car.

            Police where then Called and they cuaght them not to far from my home. 3 weeks later my duaghter decided to Run away back to him and police dropped all charges as my duaghter my main witness turned against me.

            Subhaan Allah, as a result fracture in my neck and ruptured t12 disk in my lower back. I am currently on 800mg of Celebrex, 2 Panadine Forte every 4 hours, 50mg of Fentanyl patches and moving up to 75mg. Fentanyl is suppose to be about ten times stronger then morphine.so brothers and sisters you could imagine and to top it all off 120mg of cymbalta for the depression I have suffered from trying to understand all this.

            I have gone from building houses and running businesses to screaming in pain everytime I say Allah Akbar. Don't get me wrong my imam was always strong and I didn't just start making salat becuase of what I'm going through. It's quite the opposite now I can hardly wake up from all the drugs I'm on or find it very hard becuase of all the pain I'm in.

            Now the worst part is. This is not the first time. This is the second time my duaghter has done this to me. The first time I was stabbed on the left side of my head and 5mm under my right eye. This is my duaghters 2nd marrige.

            I have since sold all my properties and have moved 600km away from where my duaghter lives with my wonderfull wife and successful son that Allah had blessed me with. Even tho I can never work again and live a normal life I have finally found some peace. My duaghter has since visited me twice at our new home and has tried to make me forgive her husband but to be honest my stomach turns everytime I here his name as he has crippled my life. My duaghter has begged me to forgive him but the truth is I have not found it inside me to even forgive her. The stress that she has put my wife and my son into is unbelievable as now my wife suffers allot of depression. The depression got so hard for my son that he left school but as I said earlier runs his own business now.

            The doctors have told me that the condition that my back and neck is in I could be bound to a wheel chair with in the ten year mark. I am only 40 years old ATM. Every night I am in that much pain that it shoots down both the back of my legs and up to my head all the way to the back of my eyes. I have seen that many doctors and specialist and tried that much medication that my stomach had started to bleed and I was vomiting blood. The pain gets that bad somtimes that I feel death would be my only cure. inshaAllah one day I could just wake up and feel no more pain but I know that will never happen. At the end of Ramadan my duaghter called me for eid to say eid mubareck, I hung up the phone and texted her never to call or text me again. Through Ramadan I couldn't even fast, while she cooked all day for her husband I laid there in tears from the pain and the depression that I couldn't fast. I was ripping at my hair and asking Allah why. What have I done wrong to my duaghter for her to be able to sleep next to the man that almost killed her own father. How can she even look into the eyes of the man that has cuased so much pain for the father that wanted to protect her. Ya Allah help me understand. How can she tell me I have to forgive him so that I am rewarded in the here after. Subhaan Allah how can she even smile while I cry trying to make wodu and I can't even finish it yet drop to my hands and knees for my creator. How can I live knowing the one I tried to protect turned to the one I tried to protect from and left me allone shattered trying to understand what I did wrong.

            Honestly I know life is hard and I know there are allot of brothers and sisters in worse conditions then my own. But like this ?

            Can anyone relate ?

            I don't know what else to say just some guidence if anyone has for my wife that has to look after me with her own problems as a mother that also lost her own duaghter. I don't know maybe she comes here and says a few things also.


            May Allah Guide Us All InshaAllah
            :wswrwb:

            may Allah swt remove all your worries and sadnesses and replace them with joys Ameen

            SubhanAllah you sound like an amazing dad. You should find so much contentment in the fact that you did everything correctly with the best intentions. You tried to save your daughter from falling into haraam, you put your own wishes and hopes aside to save her from sin. You took her back in and supported her even though she had caused you so much pain because you had true, pure love that a father has for his daughter.

            Do you think she decided to go back to him because she saw the consequences of her actions and she didn't want them to affect you or your family. So when she left you, it was because she saw what they could do to her dad so she didn't want to put you guys through that ever again and decided to go back so that it would only be her that was affected, keeping you and your family away from any evil she had got involved in.

            Of course nobody would want to go back to being beaten or forced but it must be so heartbreaking to see your dad being beat up by people you brought into his life. Maybe she finally wanted to do the right thing and keep them away from you after all they had done to you. Please don't feel angry at your daughter to the point you build up hate... She seems like she has made a lot of mistakes and you have always shown your goodness and kindness towards her. People may say you have done more than your fair share. But a parent-child bond never breaks.

            Allah swt blessed you with so much in the earlier part of your life and this world will break you one way or another, so when your moment of hardship or being tested comes, show just as much, if not more steadfastness and there is no way Allah swt won't save you.

            You said that u want to wake up one day and never feel pain but you know that won't happen - why won't it happen? You don't ask people to take away your pain, you ask your Creator. The One that decreed for you to be in this situation is also the One that can take you out. When I read your story it was very upsetting and it reminded me of the Hadith where on the day of judgment some people will wish for their skins to have been cut up with scissors once they were to come to know of the rewards. Your skin may not have been cut up but it sounds like your heart has.

            All of us here can say we feel for you, or we can say how badly your daughter behaved but I don't think any of that will help. What will help would be to reaffirm your faith. You know that this world will test you and if your emaan was high then your test was always coming to prove how sincere you were.

            But alhamdulillah just like we know the rewards of our times of hardship and times necessitating patience. We also know what removes calamity, like making istighfaar for everything and anything. Think of any and every sin and repent to Allah swt from it. Every ache and every pain you feel is removing your sins even if it was as little as the prick of a thorn. Please don't think Allah swt is not witnessing this and witnessing all the moments you've broken down and cried. Say the dua of umm salamah where she stood with firm conviction that to Allah swt we belong and to Him we return. Make dhikr of Allah swt and find tranquility and rest in this.

            We are told in the Quran that we will be tested in terms of our health, wealth, properly and children. Children are a big test because the same children that build up the love in your heart for them with every smile can be the same children that break our hearts to pieces. There is no one here that can make your or her situation better. But Allah swt has given you a special power in being a parent that can make dua for his child and it is answered.

            Make dua that Allah swt guides her heart and grants her love of the deen and make dua that you are relieved from this test in the most beautiful way and what is such a messy and hurtful situation may result in some goodness.

            we will also pray for u inshaAllah but please don't despair or become hopeless because Allah swt who loves you more than your mother and more than your wife and more than you love either, He hasn't allowed you to remain Muslim and bear witness to His Oneness other than for the fact He already loves you

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            • #7
              Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

              :salams

              Turn to Allah, your Creator, my Creator. Do lots of istighfar, and pray for guidance and ease. Ask Allah :swt: to guide your daughter. Most important of all - rely on Allah totally, know that your reward is with Allah. The King of Kings. The All-Powerful.

              Turn to your Rabb, Allah. Cry to Him, do your best, and you will be rewarded. Remember The Prophet :saw: was tested a lot, people of Taif pettled Our Prophet :saw: with stones, so much so, The Prophet :saw: bled.

              Yet what did he do? he could have made dua to crush them, but he asked Allah (:swt:) to have mercy on them. (Afaik) SubhanAllah.

              So please do dua for Allah :swt: to guide your daughter. I know it hurts, but please rely on Allah.

              Allah created you, gave you these trials, and Allah burdens not a soul beyond their capacity.

              Purify your imaan even more - take this as an opportunity to love Allah more, to ask Him more, to rely on Him more. Allah :swt: wants YOU to turn to Him, to make dua to Him, He :swt: LOVES it when you make dua, He :swt: loves the PATIENT. Remember Allah loves you.

              Purify your heart from any resentment, make dua for your daughter, good duas. Purify yourself, make yourself ever more reliant on Allah.

              And Allah :swt: is with the patient.
              And Allah :swt: knows best.
              Last edited by Serinity; 13-08-16, 12:26 AM.
              La ilaha illallahu, wahdahu la sharika lahu, lahul-mulku wa lahul-hamdu, wa Huwa 'ala kulli sha'in Qadir
              (there is no true god except Allah. He is One and He has no partner with Him; His is the sovereignty and His is the praise, and He is Omnipotent),'
              Do not say about Allah but Truth.

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              • #8
                Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

                May Allah (SWT) reward you and accept your good deeds.

                This life can be very difficult for some.

                InshAllah your physical condition improves. I know of people that have lost it all, and sometimes over such a small decision that seemed insignificant at the time. It is difficult to even think about.

                I know these are just words posted online, but I say with the hatred and anger that you carry in your heart - let it go. It will seem like the hardest thing in the World but the best thing you can do is leave things to Allah (SWT) and let him be the Judge. He is the best Judge and he will right every wrong, and put everything in order. Allah (SWT) is All-Aware, everything is recorded and accounted for - for me, when I think about the wrong and hurt that is caused to people, I do find peace in the fact that everything will be put right. And Allah's judgement will be comprehensive and complete - put your faith and trust in this.

                We fall into despair when we move away from this. Your imaan is strong, and that is a great weapon in your armoury, console yourself in Allah's Mercy and blessings.

                Concentrate on the good you have in your life.

                I would advise you to put things right with your daughter. Even though you were wronged, leave that door open but don't bend over backwards for anyone. You have your immediate family to think about.

                If you concentrate on the things that hurt you and cause you pain then it will hang over you for the rest of your life. You are not at fault of course, you will be rewarded for your struggle and hardship. What happened to you will if you want it to, elevate you in rank countless times before Allah (SWT). You don't know the rank you will have before Allah (SWT). Sometimes people face hardship, war, suffering, and you can see this just by switching on the tele, they face this because Allah (SWT) wants to elevate their rank. This is something deep and not easy to understand if you are not in the right frame of mind.

                Make Dhikr. Recite durood, remember Allah (SWT) and His Prophet (Saws).

                Don't let anger and revenge overtake you - if you do, this will make your situation worse many times over.

                I know its not easy. In every situation, whether you are in a good or bad situation, their is still a battle going on internally. Some people don't know their is a battle, and they are easily misguided. But even for you, do not let Shaytaan's whispers to allow you to become angry, bitter etc. Your battle with Shaytaan, just like everyone else is alive and ongoing, so be on guard.

                I pray that your situation improves.

                May Allah reward and protect you always. And please make dua for the Muslims of Shaam and elsewhere.

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                • #9
                  Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

                  either your daughter fears for her life if she leaves that gangster or because she herself is a messed up druggie, her thoughts and feelings are messed up too.

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                  • #10
                    Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

                    Walaykum salam

                    Really sorry to hear of the difficulties you're going through, it sounds awful. Alhamdullilah you've tried to keep your iman strong through everything and I know that's not an easy thing to do but may Allah (swt) keep you steadfast- ameen. The thing to remember are the lines of Quran that say do you think you can merely say "I believe" and wont be tested? It also says you would be tested through loss of lives (eg when relatives die), loss of wealth and that you would be tested through your children.

                    It seems in this case you are being tested through your daughter. I disagree with the post which suggests that your wife should talk some sense into your daughter. Your daughter has chosen her path and the last time you gave her a chance you almost got killed. It's up to your wife whether she wants to retain any contact with her or not, but really she should not be allowed back in your lives until and unless she makes clear changes to get away from her husband in a permanent way and can show you in a convincing way that she wont repeat her past mistakes. Until and unless she does that; her presence will be dangerous for your family.

                    Something seems wrong with your daughter that she could allow such problems to occur, not once but twice. What was she like before she got married the first time? Was she always rebellious and stubborn? It wouldn't surprise me if she's been afflicted by some form of sihr otherwise what young woman in her right mind would pour all her money away for her husband to spend on gambling and then go back to him when he returns to your house and almost kills you? Also the fact that he hits her suggests she may have stokholm syndrome, so no matter how much he treats her badly and betrays her, she'll feel a strong sense of loyalty to him because he has broken her will and psychologically made her think she's worthless without him so she's lost the will to escape from him.

                    Maybe one day she'll see sense and leave him or maybe she'll stay with him no matter what- but only she can take that step if or when she's ready, no amount of wishing on your part can make that happen. Either way she's made her decision and nothing you say or do will convince her to change it. You just need to focus your efforts on getting your own life back together and getting your own family (wife and son) to a point where they can lead a good life and move on.

                    Time only moves forward not backwards, so no amount of wishing can ever take you back to the "good old days" and how your family was before her marriage with all of you together and your good health and successful business. That doesn't mean life is at a standstill or that you spend it pining for the past. Life will be different now that your daughter is away from you, now that your wife has depression and now that your injuries have caused a decline in health, but even so, there can still be good in your life now, inshaAllah you can still build happy memories again when there are good days. Don't look back thinking you've lost everything good about your life cos' there's still good in what you have left in terms of your family who are still with you.
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                    • #11
                      Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

                      Wow. I'm so sad after reading this. I can't understand how your daughter could return to him and dare to seek your forgiveness on his behalf. She is talking about the deen and goodness of forgiveness while she not only wronged you but is living with a criminal. There is something really messed up here. Either she thinks she is protecting you/herself by choosing him (maybe he threatened to harm you if she didn't leave with him and refuse to witness??) or she is so messed up she feels loyalty/love for this loser. The first scenario makes more sense to me because if it was done due to love for that man, why would she care about seeking your forgiveness or even keeping in touch? I mean if she didn't care enough to cut off that man after he almost killed you, why start caring now? I don't know if I'm just in denial and trying to make sense of her actions but this whole story doesnt make sense to me :/
                      O people who take pleasure in a life that will vanish, falling in love with a fading shadow is sheer stupidity~ Ibn Qayyim Al-Jawziyya

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                        Re: So much pain, now I'm a addict

                        This post made me cry :(
                        The Prophet (saw) advised to: “Take benefit of five before five: Your youth before your old age, your health before your sickness, your wealth before your poverty, your free time before you are preoccupied, and your life before your death
                        https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgE...kS-Qi3nf3tcvPw

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