Assalaamualaikum warahmatullah
I’m in a bad spot right now brothers and sisters. I’ll try to make a long story short inshallah
Alhumdulillah I accept Islam nearly three years ago, and the past few years I’ve been living in a Latin American country. Last year a wonderful girl I had known here accepted Islam and we agreed to marry. For various reasons, though, we had to wait.
The past year was great. Though we talked often, we kept physical distance and guarded our chasity. Then things changed. In a few words, she met someone else, repeatedly lied to me about the nature of their relationship, made it as if I was crazy for not trusting her, then ultimately just stopped talking to me and entered into a romantic relationship with the other guy.
Needless to say, I’m hurting pretty bad right now. She really was an incredibly beautiful person and what she’s done totally just blindsided me. I understand now that I actually loved her too much, putting her in a place in my heart where only Allah should be.
I’m done with her. But the problem now is that this pain I’m feeling has allowed Shaytan to take hold of me. I’ve been a good Muslim. Of course, I have flaws and make mistakes, but I’ve been constant in my prayer, studying my deen, always giving charity and getting involved in the community. Alhumdulillah I’m well-known here for my upright character.
All this considering I used to be a typical American guy: partying, drugs/alcohol, shameless sexual relationships.
I’ve guarded my chastity for a while now, all while facing constant temptation (I’m a good looking white guy and the women in this country go crazy for that. If I don’t lower my gaze I’ll catch beautiful women staring and smiling at me throughout the day).
Here’s the real problem. Now that I’m feeling my heart is in pieces and my trust in people shattered, I can’t find the strength to stop myself from wanting to go out, get drunk and bring home a beautiful woman.
I hope Allah will forgive me. I hope He will save me. I believe in Him now more than ever. But at the moment Shaytan has a hold of me and I’m afraid of what I’m going to do.
Please make dua for me.
Assalaamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh
I’m in a bad spot right now brothers and sisters. I’ll try to make a long story short inshallah
Alhumdulillah I accept Islam nearly three years ago, and the past few years I’ve been living in a Latin American country. Last year a wonderful girl I had known here accepted Islam and we agreed to marry. For various reasons, though, we had to wait.
The past year was great. Though we talked often, we kept physical distance and guarded our chasity. Then things changed. In a few words, she met someone else, repeatedly lied to me about the nature of their relationship, made it as if I was crazy for not trusting her, then ultimately just stopped talking to me and entered into a romantic relationship with the other guy.
Needless to say, I’m hurting pretty bad right now. She really was an incredibly beautiful person and what she’s done totally just blindsided me. I understand now that I actually loved her too much, putting her in a place in my heart where only Allah should be.
I’m done with her. But the problem now is that this pain I’m feeling has allowed Shaytan to take hold of me. I’ve been a good Muslim. Of course, I have flaws and make mistakes, but I’ve been constant in my prayer, studying my deen, always giving charity and getting involved in the community. Alhumdulillah I’m well-known here for my upright character.
All this considering I used to be a typical American guy: partying, drugs/alcohol, shameless sexual relationships.
I’ve guarded my chastity for a while now, all while facing constant temptation (I’m a good looking white guy and the women in this country go crazy for that. If I don’t lower my gaze I’ll catch beautiful women staring and smiling at me throughout the day).
Here’s the real problem. Now that I’m feeling my heart is in pieces and my trust in people shattered, I can’t find the strength to stop myself from wanting to go out, get drunk and bring home a beautiful woman.
I hope Allah will forgive me. I hope He will save me. I believe in Him now more than ever. But at the moment Shaytan has a hold of me and I’m afraid of what I’m going to do.
Please make dua for me.
Assalaamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh
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