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    Salam Alakium,

    when i was 14 year old I got Hodgkin's lymphoma and I am 26 years old now. The disease kept coming back and I have symtoms of it since last 7 years and I feel really sick recently and large mass in my breast.

    I am stilling living with my parents and don't work. I am trying to earn money online since it's hard to work in the public and I didn't finish school due to my health.

    My my mom knows I have large mass and all these symtoms and I tell her all the time what I feel. I have really bad tightness in my lungs and it gets worse with hot weather.

    Their AC is broken and I kept telling my mom to tell my dad to call guy to refill the freon for a week before the 90 degree day was coming and it hurts my lungs. She would say we need to get someone to do that and fix the water heater but was doing zero effort to even look.

    The he hot day comes and I feel like I am gonna suffocate to death from my lungs. Btw I did radiation in my chest and some in my lung because there was a tumors in it.

    My my fake parents know all this since they took me to the doctor they know all this. This happens every summer and they know it hurts me. Dispite that I see no care. One summer there was nothing wrong with the AC and she refuse to turn on the AC even though I kept telling her I can't breathe and asking her to turn it on. I also told her big spray hurts my lungs and I already couldn't breathe and she goes and sprays bug spray while I am in the living room and she's on the stairs but the air makes the smell spread so I can still smell it and I already felt like my lungs were gonna rip. And I couldn't breathe and I told her a lot. Still no regard or care.

    all the while I stopped going to the doctor and tried to treat my condition naturally. My ugly parets don't care about me and I hate them from the very soul. Dispite what they did to me I still would make dua for them and feel sad when she cried or something.

    In the winter it's extreame cold in Minnesota and I stay in my room all day and don't go anywhere and feel like I am gonna lose my mind. They don't bother to offer me to go anywhere - they don't give a about me. They are busy but it doesn't matter they know what kind of health I have.

    Just today, I was trying to do something to earn money on the computer and she tells my ugly sister turn the light off I want to sleep. And I am standing there trying to use the computer. That's how much total disregard she has.

    And before that she was looking at the water bill and said to my younger sister who is a pig and has zero care for me and I pray she gets sick as a punishment for not showing any regard for me, - look how much this is; it's because they use hot water to burn their asses with hot water. She is referring to me because I told her I use very hot water because my skin is itchy from the symtoms of the cancer. My pig sister said let them pay for it, referring to me. My mom said they don't pay, we pay, me and dad they live for free. I pray for the day my sister gets cancer because she showed zero care when I got sick. Let us see if she will pay for her bills when she gets cancer.

    Was that something to say towards someone with cancer and you know they have it and are not even going to the doctor for it but trying to treat it myself. I sware to god she has never asked me, how do you feel or are you okay. Maybe twice in all my life.

    They made me sick, I always got sick durning school year with cold and flus and they never took me to the doctor and i didn't hate appitiate to eat so I kept sicker and skinny until I got Hodgkin's disease.

    I kept over over toooking all this bull but I finally realized enough is enough. I curse her a lot in my mind and out loud and my dad sometimes but Allah curses me 10 times anytime I do that as a Hadith says and I always get sleep paralysis when I do this.

    While I am writing this she comes in and gives me a plate or grapes and peeled apples she did for me which she does for me without washing her hands or she dig in the garbage and goes to touch my food and prepare it not just me but everyone so the point is she does some good things if that is what you call good but I feel it's the last staw and I want to leave this house and don't really want to see them anymore. When she travels i always miss her and cry but they did too much to hurt me. She considers good enough you live free and we support you for all these years. Yes but I got sick because of you. Your stupidity and neglect made me sick. Your crap life style and cold state made me sick. You didn't help me with a education or skills or anything you just let me sink. I hate them and will never forgive them. I will ask forgiveness for cursing them but only for fear of Allah's punishment not because I love them. Every bit of love and chances I have them is gone. It's over. I will also try to treat them good. I gave my mom a card and some money two days ago but inside I curse her and have deep hate still.

    I can't even breathe while I write this.

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    Originally Posted by Arabic Courses
    I can't even breathe while I write this.
    I understand you so well..

    I feel an extreme hatred for my parents who have just divorced.. They have never helped me or asked me if I needed something. At school, I was bullied and when I told them they laughed and said I was just a whiny boy. I entered college this year and I'm paying off my tuition fees myself working part-time .. Please help me overcome this hatred ...

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      Originally posted by Arabic Courses View Post
      Salam Alakium,

      My my fake parents know all this since they took me to the doctor they know all this

      all the while I stopped going to the doctor and tried to treat my condition naturally. My ugly parets don't care about me and I hate them from the very soul. Dispite what they did to me

      In the winter it's extreame cold in Minnesota and I stay in my room all day and don't go anywhere and feel like I am gonna lose my mind. They don't bother to offer me to go anywhere - they don't give a about me.


      And before that she was looking at the water bill and said to my younger sister who is a pig and has zero care for me and I pray she gets sick as a punishment for not showing any regard for me, -
      My pig sister said let them pay for it, referring to me. My mom said they don't pay, we pay, me and dad they live for free. I pray for the day my sister gets cancer because she showed zero care when I got sick. Let us see if she will pay for her bills when she gets cancer.

      Was that something to say towards someone with cancer and you know they have it and are not even going to the doctor for it but trying to treat it myself. I sware to god she has never asked me, how do you feel or are you okay. Maybe twice in all my life.

      They made me sick, I always got sick durning school year with cold and flus and they never took me to the doctor and i didn't hate appitiate to eat so I kept sicker and skinny until I got Hodgkin's disease.



      While I am writing this she comes in and gives me a plate or grapes and peeled apples she did for me which she does for me without washing her hands or she dig in the garbage and goes to touch my food and prepare it not just me but everyone so the point is she does some good things if that is what you call good but I feel it's the last staw and I want to leave this house and don't really want to see them anymore. When she travels i always miss her and cry but they did too much to hurt me. She considers good enough you live free and we support you for all these years. Yes but I got sick because of you. Your stupidity and neglect made me sick. Your crap life style and cold state made me sick. You didn't help me with a education or skills or anything you just let me sink. I hate them and will never forgive them. I will ask forgiveness for cursing them but only for fear of Allah's punishment not because I love them. Every bit of love and chances I have them is gone. It's over. I will also try to treat them good. I gave my mom a card and some money two days ago but inside I curse her and have deep hate still.
      salam alaykum wa rahmat allah
      you suffer from a great deal of arrogance and hate

      you need to understand that the world dosent resolve around you and grow up you are at an age where you are suppose to financialy help your familly and if you cant atleast show them some care and love.just because you are sick dosent mean that you become the king of the house and your familly should serve you and care about you 24/7.you accuse your parents that they dont care about you yet they are the same people who took care of you since you were young bought you clothes took you to the doctor ect fake parents dont do this fake parents throw their children in the trashcan.the problem is not with your parents the problem is with you thinking that you want care more than what you actually need you are a 26 years old grown up man not some baby.if you want to go outside then what about praying all your dailly fard prayers in the masjid ? and if you have difficulties walking then you can atleast sit outside your house to smell some fresh air and read a book your parents dont need to babysit you 24/7.now i dont know if all your familly members are muslims or you are the only muslim in the house regardless your mother have every right to complain that she have to pay the bills it the man of the house who should be paying wich is your father and if he cant then it you if both of you are not working then the least thing you can do is respect her complains because she have every right to regardless if she was a muslim or not.having cancer is not an execuse to be toxic to your familly .you may not be able to work but atleast have some respect for your familly taking care of you .you said in the begining of the post ''My my fake parents know all this since they took me to the doctor they know all this''and''Btw I did radiation in my chest and some in my lung because there was a tumors in it''and now you say''they never took me to the doctor'' all those time your parents took you to doctors bought you medecin took care of you went down the drai and the problem isnt with your parents you are just being ungatefull.''While I am writing this she comes in and gives me a plate or grapes and peeled apples she did for me which she does for me without washing her hands or she dig in the garbage and goes to touch my food and prepare it''how can you accuse your mother yet you wasnt with her in the kitchen to see if she washed her hands or have touched the garbage to begin with and if you dont feel comfotable with your mother serving you food how about you prepare your own food you mom isnt your maiden mate grow up.you are a very toxic and ungratefull individual i advice you to start maintaining your daily fard prayers in the masjid especialy fajr and if you cant walk to the masjid then pray at home you should also try some voluntary fasting if you can either monday and thursday 3 white days of each lunar month or the fasting of daoud this will teach you to be humble . you need to understand that the problem isnt with your family the problem is with you and the way you refer to your sister as a ''pig'' and wish she gets cancer is a clear sign of how hatefull and toxic you are add to that the disrespectfull way you refer to your parents wich further give us a solid proof

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