Back in Feb my dad got married again. My mom was totally mad and not happy about. But he went and did it anyway. My is still so depressed. She tries to put up a brave face for me but I know she's hurting inside. She feels betrayed by my father. My mother isn't the same person.
I feel helpless because there is nothing I can do to take my moms pain away.
I have grown to hate my father for what he has done. I know it's halal but he knew it would hurt my mother but he did it anyway. My mother will never recover from this.
I'm only civil with my father because I'm forced to stay at home until I marry ( which I don't know think I ever do because I'm pretty much turned off by marriage now. Men disgust men now.).
I honestly do not care if he dies at this point. I know it sounds harsh but that's how much I hate him for doing what he did to my mom.
The other day he asked how did I feel about being a big sister ( I think the other wife must be pregnant or something. He didn't say but th question was out of the blue. So it must be she's pregnant ) I just looked at him like he nut. He's a fool if he thinks I'm all excited about being a big sister to a kid a isn't my moms. And that child will be nothing to me. I refuse to except that child as my sibling.
I know I shouldn't have this much hate for him. But there no way of me respecting him anymore. Sometimes I feel bad for the way I feel because at the end of the day he is my dad.
Is there anyway I can regain respect for him? Anyway to rid myself of this anger.