My wife and I married 6 years ago; all has been well, except during the last year. We have one son and a beautiful baby daughter. They are both 5 and 2 respectively. When I married her, she was a fairy tale woman, beautiful, polite, respectful and SO unlike what women are portrayed in the movies. She wore a headscarf, she is from a great respectable family and so on and so forth. As for me, I graduated from Cambridge, and (not being conceited or anything) have, Alhamdulillah, above average looks, fit body, well-endowed, and have am very religious and a good hearted person. everything was so good, our lives with the kids, our personal life, EVERYTHING was perfect. I gave her good body massages everyday, cooked for her great meals in the weekends, bought her jewels, I did EVERYTHING for her (being a husband it being my obligation to satisfy her needs) , whatever she wanted. And, not to sound graphic or anything, but I was also very serious about her sexual pleasure as well.
About a year ago we moved to Manchester. She took off her headscarf, got together with english friends. She started wearing mini skirts and tank tops. She started drinking whenever she was out of the house, and soon enough she started sleeping with several men, atleast 3 dozen. i only found out about the affairs about six months ago. Being heart broken and completely destroyed, I couldn't face her. If i told her to stop, she would just say, "what are you gonna do? Hit me? Go ahead, so i can put you in jail....". When i threatened to divorce her, she just said, "i know you won't do that, we have kids and besides you're too soft.....haha!!!" and start laughing. Out of love of the kids i did nothing. But just 2 months ago, she went to the club while i was at work on extra time and slept with four men simultaneously. She came back half drunk and told me everything, and she wasn't one bit upset or remorseful; she was smiling :'(. I just yelled out "TALAAQ" and before i could say it two more times, she fell on her knees and immediately burst into tears and literally begged me not to say it again. I was angry but deep down i felt so bad and cruel for saying something that made her cry . She has changed again. She wears a headscarf and dresses nicely again and is so good to me and my kids again. But whenever we have sex, i afterwards feel so disgusted and sick knowing that i am sharing the bed with a woman who has done the same with so many other men. In the middle of the night, I suddenly wake up and think about how much she hurt me. When i eat food she cooks, I feel like i'm being forced to swallow rubbish. We are in bangladesh now.
I don't know what to do? I'm torn; i wish i could do the same and make her pay but i know i never could do that. I love her.
Everyone, especially sisters, PLEASE HELP ME!!!