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    Tell us your story :)

    I'm sure there are many people who will be allowed to look into this section, some looking into Islam, many ready to talk Shahada someday inshallah, and before I reverted I always wondered what happens during the Shahada, so to help them feel less worried I'm sure that many of us can write our stories to what happened on the day when you took yours, how did you feel etc

    I'll copy and paste mine from the members section in a moment (when I find it hehe) inshallah
    A small Du'a can make a big difference
    Make Dua for your brothers and sisters, wouldn't you want good things to happen to them as much as good things happening to you?

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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    as salaamu alaikum

    Alhumdulillah.. I agree akhi Allahu akhbar!!!! SubhanAllah how Allah ta'ala leads us to Islam is something that humbles me each time i read another story.. subhanAllah so many different paths and lives.. yet now sis we are united through the wonder of the Haq that is Al Islam.

    What a beautiful beautiful account masha'Allah

    May Allah ta'ala continue to bless and keep your family strong and in high emaan so you can continue to be the blessing you are to all of us and to those who are impacted by your story

    ameen!!

    ya sis
    .The Prophet sal Allahu alaiyhi wa sallam said, “I guarantee a house in Jannah for one who gives up arguing, even if he is in the right; and I guarantee a home in the middle of Jannah for one who abandons lying even for the sake of fun; and I guarantee a house in the highest part of Jannah for one who has good manners.”
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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    subhanAllah im glad i kidnapped you and chained you to your keyboard
    What an absolutely beautiful account of your journey to Islam and WHAT a story it is! I am completely overwhelemed. So many accounts from the brothers and sisters here has left me astounded and touched to the core.

    JazakAllah Khair for granting me access to this section and i pray that i dont abuse it in any way and can be of any little help to any of you inshaAllah, although- in complete honesty i think more of you are going to be of a help to me than i am to you
    So many of us "born into muslim famillies" take it for granted and dont realise that belief in Allah and Al Islam is in itself the biggestg blessing bestowed upon us by Allah Ta'ala.

    Hidayah comes only from Him and can easily be taken away from Him too. Only He knows why He does things or why He shows certain people the light and guides them to Siratul Mustaqeem.
    Ameen to all the duaas- may Allah Ta'ala unite all the muslims and give us the ability to remain steasfast in our deen! Ameen.
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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    yea I just read the whole thread earlier today, subhanALLAH, real nice stories, I'll guess I'll have to post mine up, will do later...
    "Allah's choicest people are those whom His fear has driven to absolute silence although they are neither helpless nor dumb. Rather they are possessors of eloquence and have power to speak and sense to understand. But constant glorification of Allah's name has so overpossessed their wits that their hearts are overawed and their lips sealed. When they get established in this stage they hasten towards righteoussness."

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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    oooooh! masha'Allah, amazing stories, hmm will have to write up mine for you to read some time insha'Allah
    Please make du'aa for ALL reverts relatives and friends so that they too may be guided, and for all the non practising Muslims to rediscover their faith.
    In particular, my Mum, Brother, Dad, Brothers GF, My Nieces & Nephews, Dads GF, Sam and Christy AAMEEN!

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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    LOL I have suffered typing burnout from telling my story LOL...Suffice it to say that Jan 16th, I'll be 3 in Islam.
    Here's my story here:
    http://www.ummah.com/forum/showthrea...light=Te%27oma
    I took the road less traveled...where the heck am I?

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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    as salamu alikum

    my story started at about this time last year. i had quit my old life basicly. run in's with the poilice and whatnot, i dont think i need to go into detail lol. anyways during my free time i would play an internet game online, and it had its own chatroom. my plan at the time was to join the army to "fight terrorists". now, i was really never for the war but i needed a carrer and the army at the time was appealing. plus i like guns. anyhow i said this and a muslimah got offended and basicly told me that im wrong. we got into some political debate where we really dident differ on anything, except that i thought the taliban were bad people.

    this happened last may. over time me and this muslimah talked some more, eventually talked on msn and i began asking quetions about islam. i would take down notes and stuff about the 5 pillars, the 6 pilliars of eeman ect....

    at the beggining of last ramadon i rented a copy of the holy Qur'an from the library. just readinf the into to the Qur'an gave me goosebumps. still discussing with her about islam and such, i began contemplating embracing islam.

    about 2 weeks later, i did a simple prayer to Allah(i was always a beliver in god, just no religon) asking that if islam is truly his religon, send me some sign.well that very day where ever i went there was somthing pointing to islam. to many things to be a mere coincedence especcaly in this town, it is a small northern town with the closes masjid being 2 hours drive away.

    i went into sajda and cried for a while just saying "allah hu akbar" and then said shahadah(in english).

    at the time i was leaning islam from the internet. and from a non-mahram muslim lady. that all changed on the first day of school, where there was a muslimah who immigrated. she gave me a phone number to a brothers place and since then alhamdulilah i have been trying my hardest to be a good muslim.

    anyways that my story. incase you are all wondering, no i dont talk to that muslimah no more.

    salam.

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    ! alhamdulillah
    "O you who believe! Stand out firmly for justice, as witnesses to Allah, even as against yourselves, or your parents, or your kin, and whether it be (against) rich or poor: for Allah can best protect both. Follow not the lusts (of your hearts), lest you swerve, and if you distort (justice) or decline to do justice, verily Allah is well-acquainted with all that you do." [An-Nisa 4:135]

    The Prophet said:

    "Whosoever leaves off obedience and separates from the Jamaa'ah and dies, he dies a death of jaahiliyyah. Whoever fights under the banner of the blind, becoming angry for 'asabiyyah (nationalism/tribalism/partisanship) or calling to 'asabiyyah, or assisting 'asabiyyah, then dies, he dies a death of jaahiliyyah."

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    The Prophet, said, "Abusing a Muslim is Fusuq (evil doing) and killing him is Kufr (disbelief)." sahih bukhari


    "Creeping upon you is the diseases of those people before you: envy and hatred. And hatred is the thing that shaves. I do not say it shaves the hair but it shaves the religion!

    By the One in whose Hand is my soul, you will not enter paradise until you believe, and you will not believe until you love one another. Certainly, let me inform you of that which may establish such things: spread the greetings and peace among yourselves."

    [Recorded by Imam Ahmad and Al-Tirmidhi]


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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    I already posted in another sis' thread in here but i will properly put it in here

    Here is my story:

    My family (mom, dad, and brother) is not religious at all...the only reason I went to church (non-demoninational) was because my great-aunt wanted to see me baptized before she died.. It's funny I remember when I was 12 and had to take classes for my confirmation/communion..my pastor could never answer me about the holy trinity..never made sense to me at all..When I was confirmed, I remember I had to go in front of my congregation and testify why I thought Jesus (peace be upon him) was my Lord and savior..that was a blah moment because I didn't believe he was the son of God...Funny at how a young age you can see the fallacies with that aspect of Christianity..

    Three years ago, I was taking Arabic classes at my university. There was this girl in my class that wore hijab and was very confident, friendly, and intelligent..I never had a problem with the hijab before I was Muslim, it always just made me more curious about the person underneath the veil Anywho, I started sitting next to her in class and doing assignments with her...Eventually I started asking questions and made a date to meet with her outside of class..I was going to skip out of the meeting, but she was like uhhh where ya going, we have a coffee date..so we started talking over lots of coffees and two weeks later I took my shahada alhamdullilah

    She is now my best friend and I thank Allah every day that she is in my life and helped me (actually still helping me) through my journey

    Sorry my story isn't longer or more fancy..It's just that when Islam was introduced to me..I asked myself "Why not convert..it's not gonna hurt"..it's definitely been a roller coaster ride, but I know more about myself now than I do before I started practicing Islam

    C'est tout mes amis

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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    I don't think I made an introduction thread so I'll write this here...

    I was born into a single mom household, raised Roman Catholic with mom and her sister always having some magic influences (tarot, zodiac, white magic, candles, oils, etc). Went to a Catholic School for my first 9 years of education, where I witnessed some contradictory behaviour *cough* from a (in theory at least) chaste student body.

    I was 12 on Sept. 11th 01. I was already staying home cause I was sick that day. Didn't feel any fear, hatred, or sorrow towards anyone... but I was annoyed at it being on every television station that entire week for something that happened on the other side of the country. I liked watching the news around that age, since I had just gotten a TV in my own room for once. Watching those towers fall time and time again made me media conscious I guess. I questioned what the audience had to gain with watching those same images, and came to the conclusion that -before knowing what propaganda was- there was going to be retaliation, towards whom, I did not know. Those slogans, together we stand, the iconic american stars and stripes that I had to pledge allegiance to half-heartedly on every school day didn't affect me. I suppose it's because I knew I didn't look "american" and my mom herself came as a refugee from another war (Contra war in Nicaragua) sponsored by this very country. Adjusting to an anti-nationalist mindset became easy to me from then on.

    What does 9/11 have to do with my reversion? Well, it was the first time I ever heard of Islam, though my first impressions weren't that it was a religion. I usually played computer games like Age of Empires as the Spanish against the Moors who I learned had invaded the Iberian peninsula... but 9/11 made me look towards an alternative world view. At least by the time I was 15. I became politically conscious by then, thanks to a reflection after being dumped by a girlfriend at the time.

    I wouldn't learn much of Islam or that word "Islamism" until I joined a political forum ran by left-wing radicals most from the UK... communists, socialists and anarchists. I joined a couple from the ages of 15-17. I was, and still am anti-capitalist, but when I followed those marxist ideas I was quite agnostic, and thought I'd never believe strongly in god again. Them being mostly white, I found myself compelled to defend Islamic movements like Hamas and Hizballah because them being religious didn't mean they were "reactionary".. I thought they were progressive forces for the region because most people in these countries were Muslim so it's a bit of a stretch (lol) for some atheists in the UK demanding arab muslims turn to atheist communism.

    Then I began researching on Islam for myself after I took notice of one of those members sporting the "Muhammad bomb" cartoon as an avatar, taking time away from that stupid forum and learning the religion myself. I also took an Introduction to Islam course at my college the fall of 07, where the professors were Muslim themselves and I developed a very good relationship with them and two of the Muslims taking the course. I was very attracted to Islam a lot because of how well practised it is, unlike Christianity where everyone follows pretty much their own strand and people are free to sin now that jesus has died for their right to...

    I didn't convert until last summer, the second or third time I went to a masjid, when I felt I had learned enough to properly practise and minimize my errors in salat. The brothers at both are very friendly mashallah and have helped me learn more about Islam.

    I also learned from Ummah.com of course and a couple of paltalk rooms. So pretty much that's me, alhamdulilah.

    I'm sure I've left out a lot of things but that's all I could remember at the moment, it's late.
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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    Quote Originally Posted by zaki View Post
    I'm sure there are many people who will be allowed to look into this section, some looking into Islam, many ready to talk Shahada someday inshallah, and before I reverted I always wondered what happens during the Shahada, so to help them feel less worried I'm sure that many of us can write our stories to what happened on the day when you took yours, how did you feel etc

    I'll copy and paste mine from the members section in a moment (when I find it hehe) inshallah
    I First made friends with people i worked against spent whole day with them, they were kind good people who looked after me. i was sweating as i had chilli souce with Brother Anjem and some friends .i was not used to such food being brought up by christians who cooked plain food with no spice.

    it was witnessed by about 100 people it was a day that has changed my life i have been wanting to find a way to pray for years. i have now found it. im learning every day.

    here's a link to my Shahada http://www.islam4uk.com/current-affa...embraces-islam

    may all Muslim brother and sister now be the family i never had and let me be a brother who protects my big family..

    Allah knows best.

    after my Shahada all my late friends in the newspapers,mp's and internet friends thought i was spying again? how can you spy on the Qur'an and pray!

    I take my faith in Allah as if it was a part of my body i wish to work in public to help brothers and sisters in Palestine gain their freedom.i was never excepted into the church due to colour in my view i have found a way i can pray to Allah at last,

    I hope you will all see that i have alot of good in me one day im being tested by Allah every day i feel.or maybe my whole life was a test and i walked down the wrong path for years?

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylvYuJWpdoM
    Last edited by omar-jenvey; 24-08-09 at 03:55 AM.

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    MashaAllah brother, your story is amazing.

    Allahu Akbar!





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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    Quote Originally Posted by dhakiyya View Post
    MashaAllah brother, your story is amazing.

    Allahu Akbar!
    thank you....i will share more when i get more time....

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    masha Allah, what was it that changed your understanding of islam, apart from seeing the kindness of the muslims towards u ?
    "O you who believe! Stand out firmly for justice, as witnesses to Allah, even as against yourselves, or your parents, or your kin, and whether it be (against) rich or poor: for Allah can best protect both. Follow not the lusts (of your hearts), lest you swerve, and if you distort (justice) or decline to do justice, verily Allah is well-acquainted with all that you do." [An-Nisa 4:135]

    The Prophet said:

    "Whosoever leaves off obedience and separates from the Jamaa'ah and dies, he dies a death of jaahiliyyah. Whoever fights under the banner of the blind, becoming angry for 'asabiyyah (nationalism/tribalism/partisanship) or calling to 'asabiyyah, or assisting 'asabiyyah, then dies, he dies a death of jaahiliyyah."

    muslim

    Narrated 'Abdullah:

    The Prophet, said, "Abusing a Muslim is Fusuq (evil doing) and killing him is Kufr (disbelief)." sahih bukhari


    "Creeping upon you is the diseases of those people before you: envy and hatred. And hatred is the thing that shaves. I do not say it shaves the hair but it shaves the religion!

    By the One in whose Hand is my soul, you will not enter paradise until you believe, and you will not believe until you love one another. Certainly, let me inform you of that which may establish such things: spread the greetings and peace among yourselves."

    [Recorded by Imam Ahmad and Al-Tirmidhi]


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    Salam alaykum,

    For me, I was an orthodox jew, living in Israel. I had just divorced and was living alone with my daughter.
    All started with the ahan. I was used to hear it every morning, and it was moving my heart to tears. I got used to wake up just to hear it every single morning.
    I was very strong in my faith and at the time, didn't even think of abandoning my religion. But I was bugged by the fact that all what I could hear about Islam and Muslims was they are a violent people and religion, full of hatred, women beaters, they wanted to kill all the Jews....
    So, I decided to learn more about Islam and Muslims, and at the same occasion about my Palestinian neighbours so I could make up my own mind.
    I started studying about Islam, mainly on internet (I didn't have internet, like most orthodox people, i didn't have a TV, wasn't reading any magazines or books except religious books on Judaism) that I got installed specially for that.
    After a few weeks, I wanted to make some contacts and why not friends with Palestinians.
    I managed to make good friends through a forum.
    I remember the first time I've been invited there, I was shaking like a leaf from fear they would kill me or something like that... I ate at their home, and they have been absolutely wonderful.
    They didn't care that I was Jewish, they offered hospitality like if I was part of their family, subhanAllah.
    I was telling them, I'll never convert to Islam!! I just want to clear my misconceptions about it.
    Anyway, to cut a long story short, it took me about a year of extensive learning and seing the example of true Muslims live that I took my shahada.
    I remember this morning, it was still very early and I called one of my Palestinian friends, and I told her, "Look, I can't wait anymore, I want to become a Muslim".
    So I went and took shahada near Masjid al Aqsa, (couldn't go inside as on my ID it was written I am jewish)...

    I face numerous problems and persecution from the israeli police/army... I remember once walking in the street, and a jeep just stopped me, a soldier pointed a machine gun at me... My legs were trembling, I thought he'd be able to shoot. SubhanAllah, that was one of the most scary think I've lived.

    Anyway, I stayed living there for a few months, but as I was getting more and more persecutions, and because I had to hide that I became a Muslim to my neighbourhood, I thought I'd go back to my country of origin.

    I left with my daughter who was just 3 at the time. I thought my ordeals were finished, but no... My ex husband who'd heard that I had become muslim took my daughter away and went back to Israel.

    It's been now 3 and half years I've seen her just a few times. I saw her recently for a day, after 2 and half years...

    Alhamdulillah, I am married now, and have 2 other beautiful kids...

    Verily, Allah guides whomever he wants.

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    mashaAllah sis Allahu Akbar!!!!

    I knew an Israeli who converted to Islam.... the Israeli police actually arrested her for it, they took her prayer mat and Qur'an as "evidence" - they later had to release her (saying "we didn't found the state of Israel for Jews to convert to Islam" (if I remember correctly what she told me!)) but even so... she was arrested for it!!!!

    She lived with a Palestinian family for a while and then went to the UK. I've also met quite a few Israeli Jews who've faced serious persecution from the Israeli authorities and their families, communities etc, just because they support the Palestinians and get involved with pro-Palestine demos and stuff. One of those people was a Rabbi who was without a synagogue because he kept giving sermons about how the Israelis should be nice to the Palestinians.





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    Re: Tell us your story :)

    I became Muslim on 17th March 2007, St Patrick’s Day, which is quite funny given that I’m Irish! my story isn't as awe inspiring as some that are already posted but it's a story nonetheless!

    I had a Methodist Christian upbringing and until I went to university I was very much involved in church life. I was a Sunday school teacher at the church my parents belonged to but I chose to attend church services at the local Pentecostal church where the preaching and worship was livelier. This church practised full immersion baptism and this was something I very much wanted to do to confirm my commitment to Jesus. However, on the three occasions that I had my name on the baptism list it mysteriously disappeared. Looking back I think Allah swt was protecting me, alhamdulillah. I also briefly became involved in a charismatic church because one of my friends went to it. That was a terrible experience and I can see why my parents were so worried about me at the time. The ‘revival’ movement and the ‘outpouring of the Holy Spirit’ were certainly not for me. There were always little questions in my head; which god of the trinity should I be praying to, am I getting too carried away with the emotion whipped up by the music, surely God expects more from me than just belief in Him…? But I never voiced these concerns, that was just the way it was and who was I to question it?

    University was a turning point for me spiritually, and not in a good way. Away from the tight parental controls of home I was free to let my hair down and experience the student lifestyle. I started to go out with friends to pubs and clubs thinking that I had been missing out before. This was pretty much my life for the 4 years of my degree; study, party, recover.

    There were a few occasions when my thoughts turned back to God. I started to investigate Catholicism. It appealed to me in that it was so ritualistic, that every service was planned and couldn’t deviate from that plan. The experience at the charismatic church had really frightened me and I just wanted to go to a church where nothing mad would happen and the Catholic Church seemed like a fairly safe option.

    I had to put these thoughts aside as I left the UK to spend a year in France as part of my honours degree. During this experience I was confronted by Islam for the first time. In the past I had always dismissed Islam as being foreign and too far removed from my own beliefs to even warrant my interest. For my honours assignment I decided to look into the hijab issue. I’d been fascinated by the young women in the French newspapers who were not given the right to wear a headscarf and their dignity in pleading their case. As I conducted my research and held interviews I was shocked at the hostility towards these young women and to Muslims as a whole. At the time I was dating an Algerian and I tried to get more information out of him but he seemed to be in denial about his identity! The topic of Islam, hijab and anything Arabic was off limits. Even when we were in the Arab district of Paris I was fascinated by the language, music and religion but I wasn’t allowed to stop and look at the Islamic literature being sold on the street. When I returned to the UK I didn’t give any further thought to Islam.

    After my degree I worked for a year back in Ireland before returning to England to undertake post graduate studies. The work for this course was a lot more intense and I didn’t lead the same hedonistic life that I had done previously. I still went out, still did things that I regretted but not on the same scale. I signed up to a social networking site, my sister suggested that it would be a good way to keep in touch with friends and family back home. Little did I know how much this was going to change my life!

    I got the usual influx of friend requests which I largely ignored but one caught my eye, a Muslim man in North Africa. Perhaps it reminded me of my experience in France but it brought to mind the subject of Islam.

    At that time in my life I think I was tiring of the monotony of life. I was becoming more and more disillusioned. I’d started to notice things on nights out that I didn’t like, in particular how women were being taken advantage of, how soulless it was. It made me feel quite sick. And I missed God. I think I’d had enough of enjoying myself and I wanted to be a good girl again.

    This Muslim was keen to explain Islam to me and to guide me in the right direction. I was amazed by the scientific miracles of the Quran! So I bought a book about the Islamic faith and an English translation of the Quran. It was an eye opener! It made so much sense. Islam seemed to be such a pure religion, so uncomplicated and it answered a lot of questions that I’d had. The Quran is so reliable unlike the Bible with its unknown authors and contradictions. My new friend sent me a link to a Quran website where I heard the Quran recited for the first time. Tears rolled down my face. I couldn’t understand a single world but my heart did. I knew Islam was the truth.

    A real battle commenced within me. I knew what I had to do but it was hard to take the first step. Becoming a Muslim wouldn’t be easy; how would I tell my parents, how would my friends react, what about hijab? I contacted the Islamic Society at uni and explained in an email that I was considering reverting and could I be put in touch with a sister. This sister took me under her wing and to this day she is my big sister and I love her dearly even though we live miles apart now. She explained everything, she took me to the mosque, she brought me to her home…if you can imagine anything that a new revert would need she was there to provide it down to books, a prayer mat and my first hijab!

    It didn’t take long to make a firm decision. I knew in my mind that Islam was the one true religion; I just needed to experience it in order to take that step. So after a few weeks of attending the sisters’ circle I made my shahada. As the words left my mouth I felt that my heart would burst, and from that moment I don’t think I stopped crying for the most part of the afternoon. I remember my first salat that day and in the rukoo position my tears were falling onto the floor. I was so very thankful to Allah swt that He had guided me and given me assurance.

    Life as a new Muslimah is not easy. There are so many things to learn, so many aspects of life that need adjusting. But it comes with time. I didn’t tell my family for many months but when I did they already knew. They didn’t quite understand it but they can see how Islam has changed me for the better and in their book that can’t be a bad thing. They ask questions from time to time and they’re happy for me to practise my religion, I don’t force anything on them. I think that being a good example is the best form of dawah. My family take interest in Ramadan, Eid and current affairs relating to Muslims. I can see their hearts softening towards it and their understanding of Islam is most definitely improving.

    I’m not a perfect Muslim, if such a thing exists. I haven’t managed to wear hijab in my home town, I struggle with Arabic and I feel a bit isolated sometimes. However, Islam is a lifelong journey.

    Just before I finish…in the days when I was just beginning to learn about Islam I had an interesting conversation with a taxi driver on the way home from a night out. He was a Muslim and somehow the conversation steered to topic of Islam and he figured that I was reading into it. He told me that if I was thinking of reverting not to bother, because for a white, female, westerner it would be impossible, I would find it too hard. If only he knew….

    Alhamdulillah!

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    Hello My name is Iman
    I am a new revert. I'm going to keep my story short, so I don't bore you guys to death in sha Allah

    I reverted to Islam in January of 2010 Alhamdulillah
    I am 12 turning 13. Some might say, I don't know what I am doing, or am too young to know..
    I had this feeling,inside.. I knew Islam was the way. Since I was younger too, I'd always wondered about religion, and more so , how I came to this world, and why I was here. (I'd always been a curious child) My parents , being agnostic, never taught me religion.
    I went from Agnostic, to Christian, to agnostic.
    Last year, I searched up Islam. I was very drawn to it, but I knew my parents would dissaprove, so I let it go.
    This year, I again felt curious. As I learnt more and more about Islam, I knew that it was the truth.
    I would be on, until the late of the night, reading and learning about Islam.
    One day, I couldn't wait any longer , I had to convert!
    This kind lady helped me say my shahada, through the computer.
    I wish to say it again at a masjid In sha Allah
    I thought to keep it a secret, but recently told my parents.
    they're not too happy about it, but, I fight for my beliefs.
    At school also i thought to keep it a secret, but realised. Why should I? I'm going to wear my Islam proud!
    Everyday , I'm going to admit, is a struggle. But it sure is worth it

    I'm sure when I'm older, I'll have a better story , with more experiance in sha Allah.

    Wa alaikum assalam

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    Quote Originally Posted by Gia View Post
    Hello My name is Iman
    I am a new revert. I'm going to keep my story short, so I don't bore you guys to death in sha Allah

    I reverted to Islam in January of 2010 Alhamdulillah
    I am 12 turning 13. Some might say, I don't know what I am doing, or am too young to know..
    I had this feeling,inside.. I knew Islam was the way. Since I was younger too, I'd always wondered about religion, and more so , how I came to this world, and why I was here. (I'd always been a curious child) My parents , being agnostic, never taught me religion.
    I went from Agnostic, to Christian, to agnostic.
    Last year, I searched up Islam. I was very drawn to it, but I knew my parents would dissaprove, so I let it go.
    This year, I again felt curious. As I learnt more and more about Islam, I knew that it was the truth.
    I would be on, until the late of the night, reading and learning about Islam.
    One day, I couldn't wait any longer , I had to convert!
    This kind lady helped me say my shahada, through the computer.
    I wish to say it again at a masjid In sha Allah
    I thought to keep it a secret, but recently told my parents.
    they're not too happy about it, but, I fight for my beliefs.
    At school also i thought to keep it a secret, but realised. Why should I? I'm going to wear my Islam proud!
    Everyday , I'm going to admit, is a struggle. But it sure is worth it

    I'm sure when I'm older, I'll have a better story , with more experiance in sha Allah.

    Wa alaikum assalam
    Wa alaikum assalam warahmatAllahi wabrakatuhu,

    Masha'Allah! That is an amazing story!

    May Allah continuously guide you, make things easy for you, and keep you always firmly and steadfastly on His straight path! And may Allah grant you Al-Firdaus! Ameen!

    And may Allah abundantly reward that lady that helped you say the shahadah as well as anyone else that helped you along the way or continues to help you! Ameen!

    JazakAllahukhayr for sharing that wonderful story.

    And please don't ever let anyone try to tell you something about "you being too young," blah, blah, blah! Masha'Allah, Allah guided you to find and accept Islam at the age of twelve; others may live to the age of 112 to no avail as they refused to accept Islam--so please tell me which one knows more: you or that super-oldy (no offense intended to any 112-year olds here)?

    And just to further illustrate:

    Narrated Ibn Abbas: 'Umar used to make me sit with the elderly men who had fought in the Battle of Badr. Some of them felt it (did not like that) and said to 'Umar "Why do you bring in this boy to sit with us while we have sons like him [i.e. the same age as him]?" Umar replied, "Because of what you know of his position (i.e. his religious knowledge.)" One day 'Umar called me and made me sit in the gathering of those people; and I think that he called me just to show them. (my religious knowledge). 'Umar then asked them (in my presence). "What do you say about the interpretation of the Statement of Allah:

    'When comes Help of Allah (to you O, Muhammad against your enemies) and the conquest (of Mecca).' (110.1) Some of them said, "We are ordered to praise Allah and ask for His forgiveness when Allah's Help and the conquest (of Mecca) comes to us." Some others kept quiet and did not say anything. On that, 'Umar asked me, "Do you say the same, O Ibn 'Abbas?" I replied, "No." He said, 'What do you say then?" I replied, "That is the sign of the death of Allah's Apostle which Allah informed him of. Allah said:--

    '(O Muhammad) When comes the Help of Allah (to you against your enemies) and the conquest (of Mecca) (which is the sign of your death). You should celebrate the praises of your Lord and ask for His Forgiveness, and He is the One Who accepts the repentance and forgives.' (110.3) On that 'Umar said, "I do not know anything about it other than what you have said." (Sahih Al-Bukhari, Volume 6, Book 60, Number 494)

    Narrated 'Abdullah bin Umar: While we were sitting with the Prophet a spadix of palm tree was brought to him. The Prophet said, "There is a tree among the trees which is as blessed as a Muslim" I thought that it was the date palm tree and intended to say, "It is the date-palm tree, O Allah's Apostle!" but I looked behind to see that I was the tenth and youngest of ten men present there, so I kept quiet' Then the Prophet said, "It is the datepalm tree." (Sahih Al-Bukhari, Volume 7, Book 65, Number 355)

    Narrated Ibn 'Umar: While we were with Allah's Apostle he said, "Tell me of a tree which resembles a Muslim man. Its leaves do not fall and it does not, and does not, and does not, and it gives its fruits every now and then." It came to my mind that such a tree must be the date palm, but seeing Abu Bakr and 'Umar saying nothing, I disliked to speak. So when they did not say anything, Allah's Apostle said, "It is the date-palm tree." When we got up (from that place), I said to 'Umar, "O my father! By Allah, it came to my mind that it must be the date palm tree." 'Umar said, "What prevented you from speaking" I replied, "I did not see you speaking, so I misliked to speak or say anything." Umar then said, "If you had said it, it would have been dearer to me than so-and-so." (Sahih Al-Bukhari, Volume 6, Book 60, Number 220)

    And those are just two out of many examples!

    Masha'Allah, keep up the good work, Sister!

    And thanks again for sharing.

    Assalamu alaikum warahmatAllahi wabarakatuhu
    The Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said: I guarantee a house in the surroundings of Paradise for a man who avoids quarreling even if he were in the right, a house in the middle of Paradise for a man who avoids lying even if he were joking, and a house in the upper part of Paradise for a man who made his character good. (Sunan Abu Dawud, Book 41, Number 4782)

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    Masha'Allah.. Iman what a lovely story .. All praise to Allah SWT. I don't want to add to what akhi Guy has said.. just to say ameen to his duas and alhamdulillah for the words he has shared with you.

    Stay strong little sister.. you are a brave muslimah and know we are all here for you.. it certainly is going to be a tough start to your Islam being so young, yet Allah SWT has blessed you with so much guidance at such an early start in your life.. you are blessed masha'Allah
    .The Prophet sal Allahu alaiyhi wa sallam said, “I guarantee a house in Jannah for one who gives up arguing, even if he is in the right; and I guarantee a home in the middle of Jannah for one who abandons lying even for the sake of fun; and I guarantee a house in the highest part of Jannah for one who has good manners.”
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    Quote Originally Posted by Gia View Post
    Hello My name is Iman
    I am a new revert. I'm going to keep my story short, so I don't bore you guys to death in sha Allah

    I reverted to Islam in January of 2010 Alhamdulillah
    I am 12 turning 13. Some might say, I don't know what I am doing, or am too young to know..
    I had this feeling,inside.. I knew Islam was the way. Since I was younger too, I'd always wondered about religion, and more so , how I came to this world, and why I was here. (I'd always been a curious child) My parents , being agnostic, never taught me religion.
    I went from Agnostic, to Christian, to agnostic.
    Last year, I searched up Islam. I was very drawn to it, but I knew my parents would dissaprove, so I let it go.
    This year, I again felt curious. As I learnt more and more about Islam, I knew that it was the truth.
    I would be on, until the late of the night, reading and learning about Islam.
    One day, I couldn't wait any longer , I had to convert!
    This kind lady helped me say my shahada, through the computer.
    I wish to say it again at a masjid In sha Allah
    I thought to keep it a secret, but recently told my parents.
    they're not too happy about it, but, I fight for my beliefs.
    At school also i thought to keep it a secret, but realised. Why should I? I'm going to wear my Islam proud!
    Everyday , I'm going to admit, is a struggle. But it sure is worth it

    I'm sure when I'm older, I'll have a better story , with more experiance in sha Allah.

    Wa alaikum assalam
    Welcome to Ummah.com Iman! Masha'Allaah how beautifull your story is, it makes my heart smile! Just keep in mind, don't let anyone put you down! If you have any questions, whatever the question may be, just come here and ask us!

    Keep up the good work, may Allaah bless you with a smiling future, ameen, thuma ameen .

    ~MuslimSoljah.

    P.S. I can't say any more than what Brother "Guy" and Sister "Carol_au" have said. We are all here for you Insha'Allaah.
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    SubhanAllah WaAlhamdullilah!!!! I havent been in thsi section for a very very long time but Allah hu Akbar the stories are still as tearjerking as always!! How wonderful it is to read about how you all came to Islam... truly brings tears to my eyes!!l Allah Ta'ala keep us steadfast and increase the love between us all. Ameen.

    Uncle Omar..... LOOOLL @ your disclaimer of not talking to the sister anymore do you really think we would have asked? *cough*

    Its a shame brother Zaki doesnt post as much anymore.. mashaAllah lovey posts he used to make.
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    One small change to the story though, I have chosen the name Khadeejah instead of Imaan.

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    After considerable encouragement from a few people in the real world, I have been writing about my journey to Islam. It's not pretty in places and may ruffle a few feathers, but I think the potential for good far outweighs the potential for harm.

    Anyway, here is part one:

    Writing about my journey to Islam is both difficult and liberating at the same time. Much of the journey hinges upon a period of my life of which I am far from proud, yet the experiences of this period are truly the key to gaining understanding of the process of thought that led me from a life of hedonism to, eventually, the deen of Allah . While thinking about how to put such a complex and often disturbing story into words, I have actually remembered many events that were key moments in the path to belief in God and, finally, Islam. Some of those events will stay with me, but others will be included here. It has been liberating and ultimately quite cathartic to finally string together this jumbled mass of events and people into something vaguely resembling a narrative. There are parts you may find displeasing, but I make no apologies for the content within. You have been duly warned.

    Growing up into those awkward, baffling teenage years, I often felt a very palpable sense of feeling - for want of a better phrase –utterly out of place in the world. The small-town and big-city attitudes of racism, bigotry, ignorance, mindless consumerism and remorseless greed that surrounded my early childhood and attempted to shape my adolescence, were attitudes from which I felt comfortably detached. Although I realise this is journal fodder for many an angst-ridden teenager, I like to think that, for me, this was the first sign of restlessness about the everyday lives of the Godless hordes around whom I begrudgingly entered adulthood. It was a rare experience for the sun to set without the words “there must be more to life than this”, having passed my lips.

    The growing sense of detachment from the world led me to experiment, around age 14, with drowning my confusion in copious quantities of alcohol. I cautiously admit that I enjoyed the way the world looked through the lens of intoxification; it amused me greatly, but it wasn’t enough. Laughing at the world was a far-too-simple answer to a complex question. Alcohol was generally the drug of choice for the very same people and lives that I was trying to escape. Liberation for me, it would seem, would not be found at the bottom of the glass. A cultured, bohemian chap like me, my deluded (and rather pretentious) teenage self decided, needed a cultured, bohemian lifestyle choice.

    Drugs were never hard to find for someone who looked and acted like he was already on them. The big city near my home had become my oasis, away from the desert of small-town attitudes. The punks, hippies, anarchists, socialists and other assorted sociopaths to whom I seemed to naturally gravitate toward, had a plentiful supply. My first uneasy teenage experiments with marijuana quickly blossomed into a cavalier and confident plunge into the world of powders and pills. Like alcohol, drugs provided me with what seemed to be a refreshing, alternative view of the world and, believe it or not, harnessed a thirst for reflection, contemplation and spirituality. Many a weekend was spent stumbling around the countryside, high as the proverbial kite more often than not, indulging into deep spiritual discourse with other chemically enlightened folk. Life was slowly becoming a multi-sensory probe into the great questions of life (why are we here? What is our purpose?), fuelled by hallucinogenics, stimulants and a thirst for understanding. I was searching for something, but I didn’t know what I was searching for, and I didn’t know where to look....and drugs seemed like a good a place to start as any.

    Then, I discovered heroin. A few weeks later, I was hooked, beginning around four years of addiction that leaves me a criminal record, tattoos, a barely functioning memory and enough skeletons to fill the closets of the entire royal family. Spirituality and contemplation took a back seat for a while, as life became a head-wrecking ride of crime and irresponsible mayhem, veering wildly between misery and elation, and leaving behind many corpses from its cast of miscreants. It is clear my search had taken a seriously wrong turn; a turn from which it would be difficult to return. There are obviously many tales I could share about this time, but most of them are too lurid, shocking and of too little benefit. There is one, however, that I think shines the briefest of lights on the path that lay ahead, while exposing the darkness of the path that lay behind.

    Part two later insha'Allah.
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    Alhamdulillah Allah guided you. Don't know what to say really..... just mashaAllah that you were guided!!!!!





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    After considerable encouragement from a few people in the real world, I have been writing about my journey to Islam. It's not pretty in places and may ruffle a few feathers, but I think the potential for good far outweighs the potential for harm.

    Anyway, here is part one:

    Writing about my journey to Islam is both difficult and liberating at the same time. Much of the journey hinges upon a period of my life of which I am far from proud, yet the experiences of this period are truly the key to gaining understanding of the process of thought that led me from a life of hedonism to, eventually, the deen of Allah . While thinking about how to put such a complex and often disturbing story into words, I have actually remembered many events that were key moments in the path to belief in God and, finally, Islam. Some of those events will stay with me, but others will be included here. It has been liberating and ultimately quite cathartic to finally string together this jumbled mass of events and people into something vaguely resembling a narrative. There are parts you may find displeasing, but I make no apologies for the content within. You have been duly warned.

    Growing up into those awkward, baffling teenage years, I often felt a very palpable sense of feeling - for want of a better phrase –utterly out of place in the world. The small-town and big-city attitudes of racism, bigotry, ignorance, mindless consumerism and remorseless greed that surrounded my early childhood and attempted to shape my adolescence, were attitudes from which I felt comfortably detached. Although I realise this is journal fodder for many an angst-ridden teenager, I like to think that, for me, this was the first sign of restlessness about the everyday lives of the Godless hordes around whom I begrudgingly entered adulthood. It was a rare experience for the sun to set without the words “there must be more to life than this”, having passed my lips.

    The growing sense of detachment from the world led me to experiment, around age 14, with drowning my confusion in copious quantities of alcohol. I cautiously admit that I enjoyed the way the world looked through the lens of intoxification; it amused me greatly, but it wasn’t enough. Laughing at the world was a far-too-simple answer to a complex question. Alcohol was generally the drug of choice for the very same people and lives that I was trying to escape. Liberation for me, it would seem, would not be found at the bottom of the glass. A cultured, bohemian chap like me, my deluded (and rather pretentious) teenage self decided, needed a cultured, bohemian lifestyle choice.

    Drugs were never hard to find for someone who looked and acted like he was already on them. The big city near my home had become my oasis, away from the desert of small-town attitudes. The punks, hippies, anarchists, socialists and other assorted sociopaths to whom I seemed to naturally gravitate toward, had a plentiful supply. My first uneasy teenage experiments with marijuana quickly blossomed into a cavalier and confident plunge into the world of powders and pills. Like alcohol, drugs provided me with what seemed to be a refreshing, alternative view of the world and, believe it or not, harnessed a thirst for reflection, contemplation and spirituality. Many a weekend was spent stumbling around the countryside, high as the proverbial kite more often than not, indulging into deep spiritual discourse with other chemically enlightened folk. Life was slowly becoming a multi-sensory probe into the great questions of life (why are we here? What is our purpose?), fuelled by hallucinogenics, stimulants and a thirst for understanding. I was searching for something, but I didn’t know what I was searching for, and I didn’t know where to look....and drugs seemed like a good a place to start as any.

    Then, I discovered heroin. A few weeks later, I was hooked, beginning around four years of addiction that leaves me a criminal record, tattoos, a barely functioning memory and enough skeletons to fill the closets of the entire royal family. Spirituality and contemplation took a back seat for a while, as life became a head-wrecking ride of crime and irresponsible mayhem, veering wildly between misery and elation, and leaving behind many corpses from its cast of miscreants. It is clear my search had taken a seriously wrong turn; a turn from which it would be difficult to return. There are obviously many tales I could share about this time, but most of them are too lurid, shocking and of too little benefit. There is one, however, that I think shines the briefest of lights on the path that lay ahead, while exposing the darkness of the path that lay behind.

    Part two later insha'Allah.
    subhanAllah. reminds me of me in some ways. remember that the rasul S.A.W. said the best of those in the dunya are the best of those in islam. i guess because of the experiences they been through.
    And the (faithful) slaves of the Most Gracious (Allâh) are those who walk on the earth in humility and sedateness, and when the foolish address them (with bad words) they reply back with mild words of gentleness. (25:63)

    O You who believe! Shall I guide you to a trade that will save you from a painful torment? (10) That you believe in Allâh and His Messenger (Muhammad SAW),and that you strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allâh with your wealth and your lives, that will be better for you, if you but know! (11) (If you do so) He will forgive you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow, and pleasant dwellings in Adn (Edn) Paradise; that is indeed the great success. (12)

    JazakAllah khair for the duas but i would prefer duas for shahadah instead.

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    Alhamdulillah Allah guided you. Don't know what to say really..... just mashaAllah that you were guided!!!!!
    That'll do nicely! Alhamdulillah.

    Quote Originally Posted by uncle umar View Post
    subhanAllah. reminds me of me in some ways. remember that the rasul S.A.W. said the best of those in the dunya are the best of those in islam. i guess because of the experiences they been through.
    I believe the hadith is (words to the effect of) "the best of those in jahiliyyah are the best of those in Islam". Neither of those apply to me.

    Part 2 coming up....

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    Part Two:

    Patrick was my best friend; an endearing Irishman who had a rather loveable helpless quality that the wannabe hero in me found impossible to resist. We were two of a large and shifting group of friends who took the same road into drugs, at the same time. Several of us were living together in a squatted house, all of whom were addicts. Patrick and a few of the others returned home one day to find one of our housemates lifeless on the sofa. Her hands and face were the horrid shade of blue that usually signifies a heroin overdose. Almost as one, the group sprang into action. Their first thought, however, was not to try and revive her. Their first thought was not to try ring an ambulance. It was not to even check her pulse. Their first thought was to check her pockets and search her meagre possessions for drugs and money.

    Later that day, I caught up with a clearly distressed Patrick. After recalling the events of that day, he started to cry, saying “what on earth have we become?” At that point, there was no denying the reality of the situation. We were no longer in control. This was no longer fun and it hadn’t been for some time. This evil substance had reduced us from a couple of likeable rogues with cheeky grins and a sense of humour to match, to a pair of soulless, spiritless hollow shells of men. The sparkle of life had gone from our eyes. The vibrant conversations that bound us together had been replaced by monotonous, repetitious talk about money, drugs, money and drugs, drugs and money. The search for meaning and understanding of the fluid patterns that make up the fabric of life had gone, replaced by the search for drugs, and a complete vacuousness of thought and word. We wanted out. It was a decision that would have a dramatic affect on the course of both our lives.

    Several times, we tried to quit heroin, but the withdrawals were just too severe. Most our friends were also addicts and it was virtually impossible to stay strong in the face of temptation. We would usually manage two, three or four days clean, then collapse under the sheer weight of the physical and mental horror of withdrawal. I lost count of the times we uttered those empty words, “we’ll try again next week”. Patrick became even more withdrawn and volatile. One of the last things he said to me was “I don’t even see the point in trying anymore. I just don’t see the point.” A few days later, he was dead. Patrick hung himself.

    This obviously had a huge effect upon me and, most importantly, made me question my direction in life, and its meaning. I felt very guilty over the death of Patrick and it was this guilt that led me back to my spiritual pondering. The existence of emotions such as guilt was, for me, one of the signs of the existence of God. As children, we can easily be socialised to feel guilty for certain behaviours, but why does guilt itself exist? This line of thought led me to believe that there simply had to be some kind of purpose and meaning to our lives, because we had this inbuilt sense of behaviour control; an inbuilt sense of the virtue of doing good, and the punishment for doing bad.

    I took a train to Wales and spent a week in the countryside with a minimal supply of drugs; just enough to keep me functioning. That entire week was spent being in awe of nature. I climbed, hiked, swam and generally felt alive. During that week, the existence of God was never far from my mind. The fewer drugs I took, the more I felt inclined toward spirituality. Returning to the natural state of humanity increased my ability to witness and experience the signs that God had given us of His existence. Despite all the increased awareness, my head was still in meltdown. I could barely make sense of what was happening, but I knew it was something profound. I felt pulled in two different directions – the drugs were pulling me towards evil, and my Creator was pulling me toward Him. Something had to give. During these rare moments of clarity, I tasted something wonderful: a deep sense of fulfilment simply from recognising my Creator. There was really only one path to choose.

    Part Three in a few days insha'Allah

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    Part Three (I had to take a bit of poetic licence with some parts here, due to hazy memories).

    Returning home, the reality of the situation hit me. I was living in a house full of addicts. Most my friends were addicts. I was an addict who had tried and failed many times before to ‘get clean’. Clearly, this was not going to be easy. The waiting list for rehab was months, so that wasn’t an option. A fateful encounter one evening led to the offer of a room in a shared house, occupied by a few of my remaining non-junkie friends. A haven away from the madness to kick the habit - I couldn’t explain the gratitude I felt. Sitting in that room contemplating the physical and mental torture ahead, I never felt more alone in my life.

    Strangely, I wanted to suffer. I wanted to push myself to the absolute limit, to experience something so utterly disturbing that the mere thought of it would stop any future relapse. No medication. No pain relief. No sleeping pills. No nothing. For probably the first time in my adult life, I prayed that night.....sort of. “Umm...hello...er, God? I’m pretty sure you’re up there, yeah? I don’t think we’ve spoken before, but I know that you know me. I’m sorry. I’ve been an idiot. I could use a little help here, God. I’m trying to do the right thing, God, but I’m not sure I have the strength left anymore. I’m fried. I’m in the last-chance saloon here. I’m drowning and I need you to throw me a rope. I don’t know what else to say. Thanks.”

    I will spare you the gory details, but suffice to say, the next 2 weeks were every bit as bad as I anticipated (and much worse, in many ways), but I somehow came out the other side 'clean'. That, is the main thing. It appeared my prayer was answered.

    After staying 'clean' for a month or so, my friends threw a little party for me...to try and help me reconnect with the world. One of those friends was a rather vocal atheist who, after a few drinks, decided to regale us all with his views on life, religion and God. For many reasons, I had not shared my growing belief in the existence of God with anyone. While I was still completely mixed up mentally from the withdrawal, I felt a real passion to try and counter some of his beliefs, to just say...something. I sat and waited, sat and waited, sat and waited, but the words would not come. Then, he said something which enraged me and I simply had to speak.

    “Can I ask you something?” I tentatively enquired. Without waiting for a reply, I continued, “you believe that there is no deeper meaning to our lives, no real purpose that we are here for, and basically, there is no real point to our existence. Is that correct?” He replied this was indeed the case, adding that to believe anything else was ludicrous. “OK then”, I retorted, “if you genuinely believe that that our existence is meaningless, I want you to do one thing for me....OK? I want you...to kill yourself”.

    An awkward silence fell over the room as its occupants felt the shock of my words. The atheist looked taken aback, so I pressed home the point; “What’s the big deal? If you genuinely believe that our existence has no purpose, and that our lives have no point, the idea of killing yourself shouldn’t be so troublesome.” He responded with a few vague points about how he wouldn't kill himself because life could be made meaningful through living a purposeful life. My head was telling me to shut up and be quiet, but my heart was telling me to keep speaking. I followed my heart. “That’s nonsense. I will tell you why you won’t kill yourself....it’s because you are afraid....we are all afraid of dying. The question we have to ask ourselves is why? Why are we afraid of death? Why do human beings have this inbuilt fear of death? This is not something we learn, this is instinctive...it is a natural part of all sane, rational human beings....to be afraid of death. Why are born with this instinct? I will tell you why...it is because we all instinctively know that when we die, we are going to meet the one who created us...we are going to face the judgment of God....and this is why we are afraid.”

    Thinking back, this was the first time that my belief in God made the huge leap from my head to the heart. I had intellectualised myself into a belief in God, and now it had taken root among the emotional side of me. It felt like my soul was being washed clean of the years of filth it had accumulated. This was the first time I had put my belief into words, and the first time I had truly made sense of the jumbled mass of thoughts that made up that belief. For the first time, it felt real. I just had no idea what to do with that belief.

    Part four soon insha'Allah.

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    MashaAllah TabarakAllah these stories are truly inspiring and amazing, the difference in backgrounds an upbringings as well. Really shows that anyone out there can be guided.

    all of you!

    Oh and your story writing skills are good too.
    (The hypocrites) will call the believers: "Were we not with you?" The believers will reply: "Yes! But you led yourselves into temptations, you looked forward for our destruction; you doubted (in Faith); and you were deceived by false desires, till the Command of Allah came to pass. And the chief deceiver (Satan) deceived you in respect of Allah."57:14

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    bro mashAllah thats hardcore man you definetly stronger then most.
    And the (faithful) slaves of the Most Gracious (Allâh) are those who walk on the earth in humility and sedateness, and when the foolish address them (with bad words) they reply back with mild words of gentleness. (25:63)

    O You who believe! Shall I guide you to a trade that will save you from a painful torment? (10) That you believe in Allâh and His Messenger (Muhammad SAW),and that you strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allâh with your wealth and your lives, that will be better for you, if you but know! (11) (If you do so) He will forgive you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow, and pleasant dwellings in Adn (Edn) Paradise; that is indeed the great success. (12)

    JazakAllah khair for the duas but i would prefer duas for shahadah instead.

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    *is awaiting installment 4*

    *is sorry for making everyone wait so long between installments of her own reversion story*





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    Quote Originally Posted by dhakiyya View Post
    *is awaiting installment 4*

    *is sorry for making everyone wait so long between installments of her own reversion story*
    lol give me a little while insha'Allah, life is pretty hectic at the moment....and I need a clear head to write things like this. *thumbs up*

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    bro man u a mujahid that for sure.
    And the (faithful) slaves of the Most Gracious (Allâh) are those who walk on the earth in humility and sedateness, and when the foolish address them (with bad words) they reply back with mild words of gentleness. (25:63)

    O You who believe! Shall I guide you to a trade that will save you from a painful torment? (10) That you believe in Allâh and His Messenger (Muhammad SAW),and that you strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allâh with your wealth and your lives, that will be better for you, if you but know! (11) (If you do so) He will forgive you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow, and pleasant dwellings in Adn (Edn) Paradise; that is indeed the great success. (12)

    JazakAllah khair for the duas but i would prefer duas for shahadah instead.

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    edit
    Last edited by sis_on_sunnah; 13-11-10 at 01:01 AM. Reason: dont want to share no more lol
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    Quote Originally Posted by Al-Farooq View Post
    lol give me a little while insha'Allah, life is pretty hectic at the moment....and I need a clear head to write things like this. *thumbs up*
    I totally understand brother!

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    edit
    ur a revert?
    And the (faithful) slaves of the Most Gracious (Allâh) are those who walk on the earth in humility and sedateness, and when the foolish address them (with bad words) they reply back with mild words of gentleness. (25:63)

    O You who believe! Shall I guide you to a trade that will save you from a painful torment? (10) That you believe in Allâh and His Messenger (Muhammad SAW),and that you strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allâh with your wealth and your lives, that will be better for you, if you but know! (11) (If you do so) He will forgive you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow, and pleasant dwellings in Adn (Edn) Paradise; that is indeed the great success. (12)

    JazakAllah khair for the duas but i would prefer duas for shahadah instead.

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    Quote Originally Posted by uncle umar View Post
    ur a revert?
    uh huh
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    hi.. salaam to all
    i wasn't sure if i should add my story here or put it somewhere else... because while i have joined this part of the forum. I have not yet reverted. its not that I won't... I'm getting very close to wanting to ( i want to do more study and learning though )
    I am catholic currently though raised by atheists... I started looking at reversion stories not long after i became catholic.... then a couple of years ago... i started researching a bit more.. have read large chunks ( not all ) of the Koran ( in english ) ... am now trying to learn the first sura in arabic ( i love languages.... so that is actually fun for me ) ....

    main issues keeping me from reverting.. the parents i live w/ ... the small rural area i'm in. The closest islamic cultural center is almost an hour away.. and i'm a bit nervous to go alone. So i guess thats the short version of why i'm here. Thank you for allowing me to be here.
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    Welcome if you have any questions or would like to explain any of the issues that are holding you back from reverting, inshaAllah we can answer and try to help





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    Quote Originally Posted by briteyyez View Post
    hi.. salaam to all
    i wasn't sure if i should add my story here or put it somewhere else... because while i have joined this part of the forum. I have not yet reverted. its not that I won't... I'm getting very close to wanting to ( i want to do more study and learning though )
    I am catholic currently though raised by atheists... I started looking at reversion stories not long after i became catholic.... then a couple of years ago... i started researching a bit more.. have read large chunks ( not all ) of the Koran ( in english ) ... am now trying to learn the first sura in arabic ( i love languages.... so that is actually fun for me ) ....

    main issues keeping me from reverting.. the parents i live w/ ... the small rural area i'm in. The closest islamic cultural center is almost an hour away.. and i'm a bit nervous to go alone. So i guess thats the short version of why i'm here. Thank you for allowing me to be here.
    serena
    welcome.

    i used to be a roman catholic too.

    although i must admit, i was more agnostic then anything.

    but was raised roman catholic.

    family is always a big hurdle when it comes to things like this. but, we tend to make things worse then they are in our minds. its a defense mechanisim i think, to protet us from beng outcasted.
    And the (faithful) slaves of the Most Gracious (Allâh) are those who walk on the earth in humility and sedateness, and when the foolish address them (with bad words) they reply back with mild words of gentleness. (25:63)

    O You who believe! Shall I guide you to a trade that will save you from a painful torment? (10) That you believe in Allâh and His Messenger (Muhammad SAW),and that you strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allâh with your wealth and your lives, that will be better for you, if you but know! (11) (If you do so) He will forgive you your sins, and admit you into Gardens under which rivers flow, and pleasant dwellings in Adn (Edn) Paradise; that is indeed the great success. (12)

    JazakAllah khair for the duas but i would prefer duas for shahadah instead.

    sponsor an orphan

 

 

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