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07-04-06, 10:48 PM
Repeating sins: I feel ashamed asking Allah Most High for forgiveness
Answered by Shaykh Gibril F Haddad
http://www.sunnipath.com/images/Q_Image.jpgI’m nearly 21 & alhamdulillah I’ve got a beard and I’m trying to practice my deen whatever little it may be. But the problem is that I keep on committing very bad sins and once I commit them I feel bad and I do ask the Merciful for forgiveness & in my prayer I would ask Him (subhana wa ta'ala) to forgive me & I promise I would never do it again but the problem is that I always end up doing it again and sometimes I’ll do it straight after I’ve asked for forgiveness. It’s getting really bad now and I feel ashamed asking Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) for forgiveness because I don't seem to be stopping and I fear hypocrisy within. Ya shaikh, please help me if you can & your reward would be with the most Merciful
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Wa `alaykum as-Salam:
Reform of one's patterns begins with improvements in the way we fill our time such as the company we keep. A suggestion toward the latter is to find a Murshid and spend time with him and his company. The nafs or ego is full of wrong suggestions but Allah Most High told us to seek the company of truthful people. Also, it is very important to ensure one's food is clean and good, from licit and lawful income. This is another reason to seek the company of righteous friends.
Time is so precious and at the same time so deceptive. Allah gave you so much guidance to know Him and be conscious of Him, even to the point of accusing yourself of the worst evil because of fear of displeasing Him. We are weak, however, we must move past weakness. In any case, seeking forgiveness never stops even if we feel ashamed; we must accept the fact that the ego is an evil dictator and treat it as our hypocritical, rebellious enemy which we can overcome with the help of Allah Most High; and His help is very near.
Our Master `Umar ibn al-Khattab, Allah be well-pleased with him, was approached one day by some people who complained, "We have an imam who, after praying the `asr prayer with us, begins to sing!" `Umar went with them and asked the man to recite to him what he sang to them. He said:
My heart, every time I scold it, returns to pleasures that fatigue me. I never see it occupied except with empty pastimes all the time, harming me. My evil companion, what childishness is this? Life has passed and you still play? My youth has gone and left me before I ever put it to its right use! My soul! You and your lusts are nothing. Fear Allah. Fear Him. Fear Him!
`Umar repeated the last verse over and over, weeping. Then he said, "Whoever among you must sing, let him sing such things."
Narrated by the hafiz Ibn al-Sam`ani as cited in Kanz al-`Ummal (§8944).
Was-Salam,
Hajj Gibril
Answered by Shaykh Gibril F Haddad
http://www.sunnipath.com/images/Q_Image.jpgI’m nearly 21 & alhamdulillah I’ve got a beard and I’m trying to practice my deen whatever little it may be. But the problem is that I keep on committing very bad sins and once I commit them I feel bad and I do ask the Merciful for forgiveness & in my prayer I would ask Him (subhana wa ta'ala) to forgive me & I promise I would never do it again but the problem is that I always end up doing it again and sometimes I’ll do it straight after I’ve asked for forgiveness. It’s getting really bad now and I feel ashamed asking Allah (subhana wa ta'ala) for forgiveness because I don't seem to be stopping and I fear hypocrisy within. Ya shaikh, please help me if you can & your reward would be with the most Merciful
http://www.sunnipath.com/images/A_Image.jpg
http://www.sunnipath.com/images/bism01.jpg
Wa `alaykum as-Salam:
Reform of one's patterns begins with improvements in the way we fill our time such as the company we keep. A suggestion toward the latter is to find a Murshid and spend time with him and his company. The nafs or ego is full of wrong suggestions but Allah Most High told us to seek the company of truthful people. Also, it is very important to ensure one's food is clean and good, from licit and lawful income. This is another reason to seek the company of righteous friends.
Time is so precious and at the same time so deceptive. Allah gave you so much guidance to know Him and be conscious of Him, even to the point of accusing yourself of the worst evil because of fear of displeasing Him. We are weak, however, we must move past weakness. In any case, seeking forgiveness never stops even if we feel ashamed; we must accept the fact that the ego is an evil dictator and treat it as our hypocritical, rebellious enemy which we can overcome with the help of Allah Most High; and His help is very near.
Our Master `Umar ibn al-Khattab, Allah be well-pleased with him, was approached one day by some people who complained, "We have an imam who, after praying the `asr prayer with us, begins to sing!" `Umar went with them and asked the man to recite to him what he sang to them. He said:
My heart, every time I scold it, returns to pleasures that fatigue me. I never see it occupied except with empty pastimes all the time, harming me. My evil companion, what childishness is this? Life has passed and you still play? My youth has gone and left me before I ever put it to its right use! My soul! You and your lusts are nothing. Fear Allah. Fear Him. Fear Him!
`Umar repeated the last verse over and over, weeping. Then he said, "Whoever among you must sing, let him sing such things."
Narrated by the hafiz Ibn al-Sam`ani as cited in Kanz al-`Ummal (§8944).
Was-Salam,
Hajj Gibril