Diary of a lonely soul...

[lonely_me]

What once was there is now fading away...
further and further off my reality...
In every corner of my mind I search for my lost sanity...
Distorted by pieces of my dignity
I stare through my own reflection
All I see is rejection
So I feel weak for weeks
Then once in months I was ready to 'be'...
Till a husky voice whispered near
Saying: "Lonely you'll always be"
Excuse me if I sound any too offensive
It just another word for being defensive...
I'll steer myself into oblivion
and make up lies for all that I lack...
I'll turn the lights in the empty room off and fade to black...

[Baby Paw]

What the dilly yo, for rilla?



What once was there is now fading away...
further and further off my reality...
In every corner of my mind I search for my lost sanity...
Distorted by pieces of my dignity
I stare through my own reflection
All I see is rejection
So I feel weak for weeks
Then once in months I was ready to 'be'...
Till a husky voice whispered near
Saying: "Lonely you'll always be"
Excuse me if I sound any too offensive
It just another word for being defensive...
I'll steer myself into oblivion
and make up lies for all that I lack...
I'll turn the lights in the empty room off and fade to black...

[lonely_me]

Questioning me wherever I flee...
people with curious eyes and empty surmise
am I ever allowed to be?!
will I ever strip away the loneliness surrounding me?!
How will I know if it's ever meant to be?...
It'll always be me, alone, and my lonely shadow...
When I think deep about it, I realise how much I'm shallow...
Despite all the false accomplishments...
At the end of the day it's me alone with resentment...
Fighting a winner-less war
Then at the shaking of my core
I decide to leave the night...
and move out of sight...

[Fairy]

:rubeyes: nice

[lonely_me]

http://www.tinotopia.com/graphics/hc-window-night.jpg

Standing still staring at my cell
in need of some distraction

Closing my eyes dispelling my doubts…

Disillusioned with life I swallow my pride…

Disheartened I try to enjoy the ride…

but nobody’s by my side

Dispirited I take a deep breath

hoping tomorrow will be a better day...

[SoulAsylum]

Very nice poetry lonely me...you have got a talent for putting words to feelings of the heart............................................. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. .................................................. ...........

:D

[lonely_me]

http://www.edu4eng.com/house/Exterior/FrontPorchNightThumbnail.JPG

Three O'clock in the morning...
Sitting on the front porch to listen ...
to the voices inside
telling me what I'm missing...
Some apparition of a fellow lonely soul pass...
The breeze caresses the green grass...
but I'm afraid to look up at the sky ...
Those voices never seem to die
Wondering, questioning and asking what ,who and why?!
Why do I always sigh?!

Who am I?!
Why am I always misled?!
Why do I weep for the lonely souls and the dead?!
confused and abused
I've always been used
Never had a clear vision...
Lived all my life in division...
I've always looked for a change...
my chaotic life I wanted to rearrange..
For I'm exhausted by this negativity ...
That dragged me out of naivety
Took me places I never wanted to be
To people I wish I've never seen...
It's hard when your soul is your worst enemy
to such a dilemma there's no remedy...
You fall and you crawl
and you cling to those hypothesis...
While others are breaking their promises
Busy stabbing you in the back
Courage, faith, and love is all you lack
weighed down by our self-made fears
With both hands I wipe my eyes off those tears
Then i get up and get ready to leave
I roll up my sleeves...
It's time to go
to catch up with the flow...
I enter my house, alone, as I came out...
Shutting off every living thought
That the morning has brought to me...
I return back to 'lonely_me'...

[lonely_me]

http://www.heffleylakeresort.com/gal_l_our%20drive%20way.jpg

Driving my car so fast I could hear the wind sigh...
Furious, I drive on...
All my life is mine no more...
My mind flashed back to the times
when I were the Home-coming Queen...
How glorified I have been...
To the times when I were at the top...
and the times I fought with the mob...
It reminded me of the fantasy..
the Ecstacy... that is no more...
It was lonely at the top...
and Time shattered up the mob...
So I had to leave..
My power started to seep...
away and away...
I had to escape...
the past that is no more...
the faces that were a bore
I needed to slam that door...
for I don't belong to there anymore...
Driving so fast nothing could stop me...
not the wind..
not the sun...
not the dewy grass...
I supress those feelings
but they grow bigger everytime those memories pass
a pebble on the shore...
Reminds me of the times that are no more...
Alone, for everybody's gone
who once promised to moan if I moan
and to cry for my sigh
my soul used to believe
that friends in need
are friends indeed...
I opened my eyes
and came to realise
that when my heart bleeds
I should never plead
but stick to my creed
For friends disappear when in need
they feed on greed
I raise up my shield...
driving on and on...
thinking...hoping, my life would go on ...
I did 'me' wrong..
all life long...
It's time to be...
Strong , for eternity...
to stand up for myself...
and kiss goodbye that elf...
that I made of me..

[lonely_me]

1 o'clock in the morning...
Home alone...
a knock on the door
Melts the silence away...
Who could it be?
It was so hard to see...
breath-less
I hear the same knock again...
Intruding into my solitude...
was ready to cry...
but I just gave out a sigh...
then heard some footsteps walk away
echoing in the empty corridor
Running to the door
I realised it wasn't locked at all
I cried out loud
and to Allah I bowed
For He saved my soul...
Trying to sleep
I felt the need to weep
but no tears would come out...
It's hard to be alone...
and scary on the long run!


Wed. 6/8/05

http://www.themchenrys.com/images/mt/ash2.jpg

[lonely_me]

Dark clouds...
I know the rain is coming any minute
so frail
so weak
am a flower
that's so lonely
and the trees
that grew
around
shaded every light that could be..
dark clouds.

[lonely_me]

Walking down the street
making my way
blank faces i meet
that has nothing to say.
Hearing my heart beat
for once today
We're going to meet
It's finally the end of May.
melting by the heat
I close my eyes and lay
I could clearly count my heart beat
today is the day
today my smile can defeat
the world, its way
it's so beautful and sweet
that's what people say
now looking across the street
the flowers happily sway
painting my way, my life and day
making me feel happy and complete
It's finally the End of May !


lonely!

[Ebony]

I seen this and thought of you lonely_me.

For you :)

[lonely_me]

"I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night..."
That's a touching picture that filled my heart with such a delight...
I know not how to thank thee Ebony for such a gesture so kind...
As soon as I beheld it my soul with that picture entwined...
For truly I fear not the night nor its darkness...
It's when the black curtains unfold that my heart becomes fearless...
when the night befalls that's where my energy comes...
As I lay on the cold grass and my heart just drums...
Every beautifully dark thought passes me by and smile back at me...
I hold them dear to my heart, kiss them gently then let them flee
For they need not to stay around, to the night they belong...
Surrounded by thoughts and words from the past I spend all night long.
I want to thank you Ebony for being the beautiful soul you are...
A big glowing thank-you goes out to you from a lonely_star! :love:

Lonely.

[Irfan GBH]

Believe In Yourself

The sun will shine on you again,
Your spirit will be lifted from within,
Beyond dark clouds, thunder and rain,
You'll rise up with new strength
To bounce back again.
For you are a somebody
On God's treasured shelf.
Some roads may be rough,
Some hours may be lonely,
Some moments may be painful,
Some tears may be silent,
Some tasks may be heavy,
Some days may be long,
But don't go without a day.
To give your heart a happy song.
Go ahead...believe in yourself.

Eddie Timak

[Salahudin]

Subhanallah, a legend in the making!

[lonely_me]

She's taking her time making up the reasons

To justify all the hurt inside

Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes...

Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one

They're saying...

Mama never loved her much...

And daddy never keeps in touch...

That's why she shies away from human affection

But somewhere in a private place

She packs her bags for outer space

And now she's waiting for the right

kind of pilot

To come...



~~~ Anonymous.

[Guardian Hijab]

Asalamualaikum

Thats my girl:D

Keep em coming eh sis:)

Wa'alaikumasalam

[lonely_me]

Merci Merci sis...

They gonna flood the place... I assure you.

:love:

[Guardian Hijab]

Merci Merci sis...

They gonna flood the place... I assure you.

:love:
Asalamualaikum

Grand:up: Something to look forward to on Ummah now, yup yup:D

Wa'alaikumasalam:)

[lonely_me]

An eye for an eye
a tooth for a thooth
and a heart-break for a heart-break!
Be ready, your time has come
Now, We shall see who's real,
and who's fake.

Stepping on my dignity
swallowing my pride
adding another sorrowful brick
to the wall in my mind
I'm no longer capable of that
I'm no longer willing to cry

or to die...

You discarded me
when you couldn't read my price tag
It was hard for you to see
numbers written in gold
by a heart that doesn't brag...
(One Four Three)
and you still couldn't see
The soul behind those tired eyes

You say you can see through me??
Well that's a surprise
For you never knew
the girl in blue
Who couldn't tolerate your lies.

It's been two years now
the stake you once drove into my heart
is all cleaned up
and ready to depart.
Ready to rest in your own heart
A heart that is made of stone
I know you are now alone...
and you daily moan...
For the love you once had...
The love you sold
with hands so cold
I can't say I'm sad
angry or mad
I'm just happy that I now can tell
the real from the fake...
The dove from the snake
And for my own sake
my motto will now be
"A heartbreak for a Hreatbreak".
what you give is what you take.

Lonely.

[muslim in UK]

TOO LATE
I didn't know I loved you
Until you went away.
I didn't much think of you
Up to that final day.
The music that was you
I only noticed when it stopped.
I didn't take the time to
Tell you that I cared a lot.
My love of life went with you
Too late for me to say
I didn't know how much I loved you
Until the day you went away.

[lonely_me]

hmmmm.... it would have sounded perfect had it been posted somewhere else...:)...good job though... and sorry for whatever inspired you to write that piece...

[lonely_me]

I know my street , that's where I live
I never take , I always give
They always leave me on the shelf
I live my life all by myself

My car ain't big , I can't go fast

I'm always tryin' to save my health
I live my life all by myself

Ev'rything I have I own and no one lives on me
I'm a woman who stands alone

So take your hand down off my chair
'cause I'm the one who's sitting there
And I ain't even seen no wealth
I live my live all by myself

~~~BG'z.

[lonely_me]

Soon Baby
I will cry my last tear
Soon, yeah
I will be over you
Soon darlin'...
All these tears wont be here...
Soon ,yeah...
You know that I will be over you, Soon...

One night baby you wont be in my dreams
One night, yeah...
I'll finally make it through one night darlin'
I wont call out your name...
I wont be in this place...
I will be over you

Soon as the mountains turn into rivers...
Soon as the sea turns into sand...
Soon as the sun comes up at midnight...
That's how Soon...
all the hurt will end...
but until then i'll just pretend
it will be over...
I Keep telling myself I'll forget you...
Someday, Soon...

Soon as the mountains turn into rivers
Soon as the sea turns into sand
Soon as the sun comes up at midnight
That's how soon...

~~~L.

[abdusamad]

Masha Allah..have ya considered publishing it?

[lonely_me]

Oh no, I didn't write that poem...

the ones I wrote are entailed with my name... :)

[abdusamad]

still very talented. .. mashaAllah keep it up.. islamic poems, praising Allah :up: and i would be your fan.

[lonely_me]

In sha'Allah.

[abdusamad]

inshaAllah!


May Allah make it easy for you , Ameen.

[lonely_me]

Jazak Allahu Khair.

:)

[Salahudin]

hmm... wonder were the lonely soul has gone to?

hope she is great! Insha'Allah!

[Guardian Hijab]

hmm... wonder were the lonely soul has gone to?

hope she is great! Insha'Allah!
Asalamualaikum

Aint no sunshine when she's gone
And she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away

hope you're well sis:)

Wa'alaikumasalam

[Irfan GBH]

:wavey:

[SoulAsylum]

Asalamualaikum

Aint no sunshine when she's gone
And she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away

hope you're well sis:)

Wa'alaikumasalam

Ameen........big Ramadhan shout out to sis Lonely_me from the Ummah Massive :D

[ze leetle elper]

(Sing along to Zain Bikha's 'Wonderful World')

O what a wonderful world it would be
If we could all write like lonely_me
She posts wonderful poetry
And she doesn't even charge a fee...... :D

Her thought are emotive and bring us delight
Our un-rhyming must have given her a fright!
But she's passed Ummah's very test
And now a sister- she's considered one of the best..........:D

But now she says she is going away
What will we do? Whom will we now play?
She flew into our nest a month ago
And now shes leaving, we're on a low.........:(

But not to worry, let's hope she does come back!
And in the meantime, hope Allah will protect
And grant His mercy upon her and give a helping hand
And bless her with a loving husband.................:D

So what a wonderful world it would be
If we could all write like lonely_me
She posts wonderful poetry
And she doesn't even charge a fee...... :D

[SoulAsylum]

(Sing along to Zain Bikha's 'Wonderful World')

O what a wonderful world it would be
If we could all write like lonely_me
She posts wonderful poetry
And she doesn't even charge a fee...... :D

Her thought are emotive and bring us delight
Our un-rhyming must have given her a fright!
But she's passed Ummah's very test
And now a sister- she's considered one of the best..........:D

But now she says she is going away
What will we do? Whom will we now play?
She flew into our nest a month ago
And now shes leaving, we're on a low.........:(

But not to worry, let's hope she does come back!
And in the meantime, hope Allah will protect
And grant His mercy upon her and give a helping hand
And bless her with a loving husband.................:D

So what a wonderful world it would be
If we could all write like lonely_me
She posts wonderful poetry
And she doesn't even charge a fee...... :D

Good attempt Zee :up: ..........maybe you can fill lonelys shoes so to speak :)

[Irfan GBH]

Good attempt Zee :up: ..........maybe you can fill lonelys shoes so to speak :)

Er....no...:p

[Irfan GBH]

Lonely's not back? :( Hope she's ok, seems strange she celebrated Eid without us...

[redsulphur]

:start:


http://x11.putfile.com/11/30808361958.gif ... where have you gone?

..hmm.. wherever you are ..I hope your are well ..:insha: :)


:wswrwb:

[SoulAsylum]

Lonely's not back? :( Hope she's ok, seems strange she celebrated Eid without us...

Maybe she's watching us.

From behind the scenes........maybe, mysteriously.

[Mary Carol]

Pickin’ up the pieces of my sweet shattered dream
I wonder how the old folks are tonight
Her name was Ann and I’ll be damned if I recall her face
She left me not knowin’ what to do
Carefree highway, let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

Turnin’ back the pages to the times I love best
I wonder if she’ll ever do the same
Now the thing that I call livin’ is just bein’ satisfied
With knowin’ I got no one left to blame

Carefree highway, got ta see you my old flame
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

Searchin’ through the fragments of my dream-shattered sleep
I wonder if the years have closed her mind
I guess it must be wanderlust or tryin’ to get free
From the good old faithful feelin’ we once knew

Carefree highway, let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you
Let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, got ta see you my old flame
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

~Carefree Highway
Gordon Lightfoot

[Guardian Hijab]

Pickin’ up the pieces of my sweet shattered dream
I wonder how the old folks are tonight
Her name was Ann and I’ll be damned if I recall her face
She left me not knowin’ what to do
Carefree highway, let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

Turnin’ back the pages to the times I love best
I wonder if she’ll ever do the same
Now the thing that I call livin’ is just bein’ satisfied
With knowin’ I got no one left to blame

Carefree highway, got ta see you my old flame
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

Searchin’ through the fragments of my dream-shattered sleep
I wonder if the years have closed her mind
I guess it must be wanderlust or tryin’ to get free
From the good old faithful feelin’ we once knew

Carefree highway, let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you
Let me slip away on you
Carefree highway, got ta see you my old flame
Carefree highway, you seen better days
The mornin’ after blues from my head down to my shoes
Carefree highway, let me slip away
Slip away on you

~Carefree Highway
Gordon Lightfoot
Asalamualaikum

sis this where Lonely_Me posts her stuff, and that goes to anyone else, no hijacking, where is that girl anyways?!?!?!

Wa'alaikumasalam

[Mary Carol]

Asalamualaikum

sis this where Lonely_Me posts her stuff, and that goes to anyone else, no hijacking,

Much too late for that warning...she has drawn in all these poets already.

where is that girl anyways?!?!?!

Wa'alaikumasalam

Inshallah closer than we think. :love:

[lonely_me]

thank you for keeping my thread alive....everybody...

[Guardian Hijab]

Asalamualaikum

Aw no problem sis, and stop with the '...', its making me worried! So tell us where ya been bud!

Wa'alaikumasalam

[lonely_me]

tell us where ya been bud

I might do.
through a poem
...or two.

[Guardian Hijab]

Asalamualaikum

Yay:)

Wa'alaikumasalam

[lonely_me]

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance,
for a break that would make it okay.

There's always some reason
to feel not good enough,
and it's hard, at the end of the day.

I need some distraction,
Oh, beautiful release.
Memories seep from my veins.

Let me be empty,
Oh, and weightless,
And maybe
I'll find some peace tonight.

In the arms of the angel,
fly away from here,
from this dark, cold hotel room,
and the endlessness that you feel.

You are pulled from the wreckage,
Of your silent reverie.
You're in the arms of the angel,
may you find some comfort here.

So tired of the straight line,
and everywhere you turn,
there's vultures and thieves at your back.

The storm keeps on twisting.
you Keep on building lies
that you make up for all that you lack.

it don't make no difference,
escape one last time.
It's easier to believe
in this sweet madness,
Oh, this glorious sadness,
that brings me to my knees...

~~~Sarah M.

[Guardian Hijab]

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance,
for a break that would make it okay.

There's always some reason
to feel not good enough,
and it's hard, at the end of the day.

I need some distraction,
Oh, beautiful release.
Memories seep from my veins.

Let me be empty,
Oh, and weightless,
And maybe
I'll find some peace tonight.

In the arms of the angel,
fly away from here,
from this dark, cold hotel room,
and the endlessness that you feel.

You are pulled from the wreckage,
Of your silent reverie.
You're in the arms of the angel,
may you find some comfort here.

So tired of the straight line,
and everywhere you turn,
there's vultures and thieves at your back.

The storm keeps on twisting.
you Keep on building lies
that you make up for all that you lack.

it don't make no difference,
escape one last time.
It's easier to believe
in this sweet madness,
Oh, this glorious sadness,
that brings me to my knees...

~~~Sarah M.
Asalamualaikum

Sarah McLaughan

One of the my faves:love:

:)

Have you heard her song Fallen?

Wa'alaikumasalam

[lonely_me]

salam,

Yes... I like her work...a lot. :love:

w'alaikum asalam ...

[Salahudin]

so where have you been? :scratch:

[lonely_me]

Ermmm...that's a hard one...

[Salahudin]

just don't fly away again without a 'see ya later' note~ I.A.

:1peace:

[lonely_me]

When I was old
I never believed in love
I was constantly told
that it's a peaceful dove...
Days went by and now I know
Within the heart of the lonely
love never grow.

~~~Lonely.

[Guardian Hijab]

When I was old
I never believed in love
I was constantly told
that it's a peaceful dove...
Days went by and now I know
Within the heart of the lonely
love never grow.

~~~Lonely.

Asalamualaikum

does that mean you don't love me:crying:

Wa'alaikumasalam

[SoulAsylum]

When I was old
I never believed in love
I was constantly told
that it's a peaceful dove...
Days went by and now I know
Within the heart of the lonely
love never grow.

~~~Lonely.


Love strikes when u least expect it to.

Dont be pessimistic :D

[lonely_me]

Asalamualaikum

does that mean you don't love me:crying:

Wa'alaikumasalam

You silly you!
I love you so,
for being you
and being true
For Allah's sake
so gimme a break

my tears i fought
as those lines i wrote
about love that dies
and love that lies

A different kind
of love that's blind
it lasts for a day
then fades, in a way
so cry not those tears
and have no fears
my love for you
is so damn true!

:p

lonely!

[lonely_me]

Love strikes when u least expect it to.

Dont be pessimistic :D

Love strikes when you least expect it to
you're absolutely right, my mate,
it strikes and into tiny pieces shatters you
that's part of love, part of fate!

[Guardian Hijab]

You silly you!
I love you so,
for being you
and being true
For Allah's sake
so gimme a break

my tears i fought
as those lines i wrote
about love that dies
and love that lies

A different kind
of love that's blind
it lasts for a day
then fades, in a way
so cry not those tears
and have no fears
my love for you
is so damn true!

:p

lonely!
Asalamualaikum

Grand:D What a way to make a girl smile:D

Wa'alaikumasalam

[SoulAsylum]

Love strikes when you least expect it to
you're absolutely right, my mate,
it strikes and into tiny pieces shatters you
that's part of love, part of fate!

The true lovers will prevail Lonely....

As will true love :D

[lonely_me]

Whether you want or not,
You are alone.
Aloneness is in your nature,
Try to forget,
Try to hide,
or run away,
it is in your every feature.
Make friends,
have love,
Mix in the crowds,
Deep inside you are alone.
Your aloneness is untouchable,
unreachable,
and your pain is unthinkable.

You're born alone,
you live alone,
and you die alone.
Aloneness is your every nature,
but to your aloneness
you are a stranger.
Forget your loneliness
rejoice in your aloneness
the race is long
and life is short
fill in the gap that grows bigger
with each passing day
the hunger within
and the anger, deepen
but you are alone
and the witness is 'dawn'
for you wake up alone
and you sleep alone
your aloneness is never gone
it's your nature,
it's in your features.
Every thin wrinkle,
every strand of your hair
every inch of your body
every single nightmare

says you're alone.

~~~Lonely.

[SoulAsylum]

Whether you want or not,
You are alone.
Aloneness is in your nature,
Try to forget,
Try to hide,
or run away,
it is in your every feature.
Make friends,
have love,
Mix in the crowds,
Deep inside you are alone.
Your aloneness is untouchable,
unreachable,
and your pain is unthinkable.

You're born alone,
you live alone,
and you die alone.
Aloneness is your every nature,
but to your aloneness
you are a stranger.
Forget your loneliness
rejoice in your aloneness
the race is long
and life is short
fill in the gap that grows bigger
with each passing day
the hunger within
and the anger, deepen
but you are alone
and the witness is 'dawn'
for you wake up alone
and you sleep alone
your aloneness is never gone
it's your nature,
it's in your features.
Every thin wrinkle,
every strand of your hair
every inch of your body
every single nightmare

says you're alone.

~~~Lonely.







Wow........that is deep lonely.......

deeper than the pacific ocean :rolleyes:

and another thing accept your loneliness, embrace it and you wont feel alone......thats enough wise words from me for today :p

[Irfan GBH]

remember: no one is alone, Allah is closer to us then our jugular vein.

[MalikOne™]

remember: no one is alone, Allah is closer to us then our jugular vein.

yep :D

[SoulAsylum]

remember: no one is alone, Allah is closer to us then our jugular vein.

tru say brother.

[lonely_me]

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life...

There isn't anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me

Mama, you know I love you
Mama, you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
.....

~~~B2M

[lonely_me]

Blessed is your name...

Blessed is your face...

my beloved.

blessed is your smile,

which makes my soul wants to fly

my beloved.

all the nights,

and all the times that

you cared for me

but I never really understand

now it's too late .

Forgive me.

Now I'm alone filled with so much shame
for all the years I caused you pain
if only I could sleep in your arms again
mother I'm lost without you...
you were the sun that brightened my day
now who's gonna wipe my tears away
if only I knew what I know today
Mother,
I'm lost without you...

~~~S. Y.

[Mujaheedah]

wow mashaallah lonely they ae beautiful

[lonely_me]

She was beautiful, too.

[lonely_me]

I surround myself with pictures
Some you made,
And some made of you
And I stretch across the wall of time
To touch you.
If I could speak some magic words,
Would you return?
My ears play tricks--
Is that your laughter that I hear?
Your smile, so bravely shining on my walls--
Could it not warm my countenance once more?
Your eyes, so bright,
Which always glowed with pleasure--
Could they not gaze upon my own again?
But no, ...your lovely eyes are forfeit;
They shine in others' faces now
And view a world
That is no longer yours.
And parts of you are scattered
Far and wide
And bring new life to other mothers..

though I grieve,
I cherish, too, the thought
That part of you lives on,
Though hidden far from me.
I guess life goes on...
I love you, Mom.

~~~S. M.

[Guardian Hijab]

She was beautiful, too.
Asalamualaikum

mashAllah, I bet she was one to behold eh:)

:love:

Wa'alaikumasalam

[mara]

The poetry dedicated to mom its :love: but you should send to her, to read it, will express better your gratitude to her :).

[lonely_me]

In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to whoever
What it's like when you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch
Where people saying: "My God, that's tough"
"She stood him up"
"No point in us remaining"
"We may as well go home"
As I did on my own
All Alone
...again, naturally
To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to, who wouldn't do?
The role I was about to play?
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt

In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that there are more hearts
Broken in the world that can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do?

Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again,
naturally .


~~~~By G. O.

[lonely_me]

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize for once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

Well my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive...

If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

~~~ Dido.

[Te'oma]

Lonely, your poetry oozes emotion and anguish and makes it almost palpable. My grandfather used to say that if a writer writes something and only one person "feels" it then the writer is a success. You are a success many times over IMHO

[Abu Hurairah]

Sometimes some things you read and see in the dunyah does make tears come to your eyes.

[lonely_me]

Why did you have to leave me?Why did you give up on life?!....You promised me to be there ....always and forever...I never knew 'forever' is this short...You never told me the when's or why's....All I know is that ...I spent the whole daywaiting for you...While you were dying.... Miles away,from me...Angry and mad ...I was for you didn't show up then...Angry and mad....I now lament every second of it....But I didn't know...That you were letting go...of life...and of me.... When that wind blew....I knew....Something was wrong....Your body may have died....but appartitions of your soul ...still water my flowers....and watch my back ...In your presence and absence...My heart cries for you...and every crying cold corner of the house....misses you...-- and I do, too. Lonely.

[Niqaabi]

Beautiful.

[lonely_me]

Merci.

[lonely_me]

There is a place in which I love to be When I cannot reach my mother’s comforting arms...
There is a place in which I love to be
When I think of the sparkle in a child’s eye as he prays with his father...
There is a place in which I love to be when the stars are bright, my heart is light and Chechnya is free!
When I’m blessed with success
When I’m warm in my bed
When smiles are sincere and my mind is clear
There is a place in which I love to be...

There is a place in which I love to be when I’m discouraged by defeat, Insulted by those that I love,
and disappointed by my irresponsibility
Then, there is a place in which I need to be...
When commitments are weakened,
Diamonds stop shining and strengths are forgotten ...
There is one place in which I love to be...
Down on my knees, with tears in my heart, my head to the floor.
In submission to God is the only place in which I love to be.

~~~ Anonymous.

[lonely_me]

There was a girl I used to know
She was oh so beautiful
But she’s not here anymore
She had a college degree
Smart as anyone could be
She had so much to live for
But she fell in love
With the wrong kinda man
He abused her love and treated her so bad
There was not enough education in her world
That could save the life of this little girl

How come, how long??
It’s not right, it’s so wrong
Do we let it just go on??
Turn our backs and carry on
Wake up, for it’s too late
Right now, we can’t wait
She won’t have a second try
Open up your hearts
As well as your eyes...

She tried to give a cry for help
She even blamed things on herself...
But no one came to her aid...
Nothing was wrong as far as we could tell...
That’s what we’d like to tell ourselves...
But no, it wasn’t that way...
So she fell in love...
With the wrong kinda man...
And she paid with her life...
For loving that man...
So we cannot ignore...
We must look for the signs...
And maybe next time...
We might save somebody’s life...

I on occasion met that guy
He stirred up bad feelings deep inside
Something about him wasn’t right
The way he proves himself a man
By beatin’ his woman with his hands
Oh I wish she’d seen the light
How can someone like that
Call himself a man
In reality he’s far more less than that
And we cannot ignore
Whenever we see the signs
’cause any kinda of abuse
God knows isn’t right

~~~B.F.

[Ebony]

Something for you sis:

[hijabiniqaabi]

that was beautiful sis

[hijabiniqaabi]

Encouragement

Don't forget be a good girl- don't embarass me.
don't cry ,dont wear that you--represent me.
comb your hair why don't you look like them?
why are you always in the house?
your makeing me hate you.
by the way its your fault he left.
don't tell me business.
you are so stupid.
i pace myself to my room and sit by the window the moisture touches my cheek and soaks my shirt.
as o take it all in.
i hear even more echoes "lose weight",a family that prays together stays together.
i could burn you with this curling iron ya' know.
why are you crying it's your own fault.if you
killed yourself i'd go crazy.shut up you fat pig.
your mom is so nice.
i brought you in this world i can take you out.
these echoes haunt me at night.i change shirts i throw that one in the pile with wet shirts and sing myself to sleep like i used to do.

[hijabiniqaabi]

"young girl"

When I was young I was naive and dumb

sometimes I think i'm still that girl

I'm not where I want to be

i'm further than where I started

What he says plays over in my mind and I keep thinking

maybe this time I wont leave brokenhearted

Maybe this time I'll be strong

but it's hard to pretend your always wrong

I do know i'm not always right,and I dont pretend to be

maybe I still am Naive and dumb

It's not easy being me,sometimes I get frustrated ,

I want to give up

I want that earth shattering love

make my knees go weak when he approaches me

I want him to crave me in his sleep

and maybe his knees could be weak

for me,

but that will never happen

I'm not the type of girl you take home

So I'll just remain alone

I wish it were easy to be me

I guess this means i'm still young,dumb and naive

[lonely_me]

Thanks :)

[lonely_me]

Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...

~~~A.M

[lonely_me]

I'm Nobody! Who are you?
Are you—Nobody—Too?
Then there's a pair of us!
Don't tell! they'd advertise—you know!

How dreary—to be—Somebody!
How public—like a Frog—
To tell one's name—the livelong June—
To an admiring Bog!

...Emily D.

[SoulAsylum]

I'm Nobody! Who are you?
Are you—Nobody—Too?
Then there's a pair of us!
Don't tell! they'd advertise—you know!

How dreary—to be—Somebody!
How public—like a Frog—
To tell one's name—the livelong June—
To an admiring Bog!

...Emily D.




Good one :up:

[lonely_me]

It has come to my mind tonight,
To open my old letters and read them...
I didn't know that I was playing with fire...
I didn't know that I was digging my grave with my own hands...

I didn't know that love letter can breathe life into you...
and that re-reading them make you die slowly... and painfully.
I didn't know that terms of endearment can turn into a guillotine...

What foolshiness have I commited!
To peek into this volano
To unleash the memories and get them out of this bulgy bottle...
to let the wind in and watch it scatter around my papers,
my books,
my make-up tools
and my clothes...
then gobble me up
like an apple.

Women commit suicide by re-reading their love letters...
they throw themselves under the wheels of those magical letters and crazy words.
They cold-heatedly drown themselves in a sea of blue ink...
and that's what I've done tonight
When I opened my drawers
just to awaken the demons...

and now I have to shoot dead those memories..
and close the drawers, once again.

Lonely_me.

[Guardian Hijab]

It has come to my mind tonight,
To open my old letters and read them...
I didn't know that I was playing with fire...
I didn't know that I was digging my grave with my own hands...

I didn't know that love letter can breathe life into you...
and that re-reading them make you die slowly... and painfully.
I didn't know that terms of endearment can turn into a guillotine...

What foolshiness have I commited!
To peek into this volano
To unleash the memories and get them out of this bulgy bottle...
to let the wind in and watch it scatter around my papers,
my books,
my make-up tools
and my clothes...
then gobble me up
like an apple.

Women commit suicide by re-reading their love letters...
they throw themselves under the wheels of those magical letters and crazy words.
They cold-heatedly drown themselves in a sea of blue ink...
and that's what I've done tonight
When I opened my drawers
just to awaken the demons...

and now I have to shoot dead those memories..
and close the drawers, once again.

Lonely_me.
:inlove:

Me like.

[lonely_me]

Before you sleep,
Lock the door
close the windows,
walk your way to bed
Do not panic if darkness hit your every organ
Do not be scared if loneliness touched every thread of your being
Remember: You're going to die alone,
Just like me,
except that I do, everynight.

Lonely.

[Guardian Hijab]

Before you sleep,
Lock the door
close the windows,
walk your way to bed
Do not panic if darkness hit your every organ
Do not be scared if loneliness touched every thread of your being
Remember: You're going to die alone,
Just like me,
except that I do, everynight.

Lonely.
:crying:

[Irfan GBH]

Before you sleep,
Lock the door
close the windows,
walk your way to bed
Do not panic if darkness hit your every organ
Do not be scared if loneliness touched every thread of your being
Remember: You're going to die alone,
Just like me,
except that I do, everynight.

Lonely.

:( more lonely_me poems! (Where's she disapeared to? Anyone know?)

[UNDACOVA SISTAH]

NICE POEM MASHALLAH..u do hv a talent mashallah.. verry poeticc. SALAAM

[H_2]

~Bump.

[WindSoul]

I listen to the wind to the wind of my soul.
Where I'll end up well I think only God really knows.

[bfgprty]

Before you sleep,
Lock the door
close the windows,
walk your way to bed
Do not panic if darkness hit your every organ
Do not be scared if loneliness touched every thread of your being
Remember: You're going to die alone,
Just like me,
except that I do, everynight.

Lonely.

An amazing poem. :(

[mara]

An amazing poem. :(Sincerity counts in poetry otherwise is fake:(

[lonely_me]

Listen to my voice when I'm silent...Follow me to the place I fail to reach.From the deepest love to the extremeFollow me to I don't know whereJust follow me. Follow me and look deep in yourself, I'll disappear from here, I'll appear again as a shooting star there!

[Redmist]

Listen to my voice when I'm silent...Follow me to the place I fail to reach.From the deepest love to the extremeFollow me to I don't know whereJust follow me. Follow me and look deep in yourself, I'll disappear from here, I'll appear again as a shooting star there!

Why are all the freaks coming out tonight? :p

Ur not a freak Lonely me :)

good to see ur still alive!

[lonely_me]

Thank you, whoever you are. I'm alive, but I'm mostly dead.

[Nasibah]

Listen to my voice when I'm silent...Follow me to the place I fail to reach.From the deepest love to the extremeFollow me to I don't know whereJust follow me. Follow me and look deep in yourself, I'll disappear from here, I'll appear again as a shooting star there!

Very good :masha:

[Redmist]

I'm alive, but I'm mostly dead.

Join the rest of us then :p

[lonely_me]

Ok. Now I know who you are.

[MG]

Thank you, whoever you are. I'm alive, but I'm mostly dead.


aslaam alaikum


so good to hear from you in such a long time!

inshallah i hope all is well

[Small Sis]

Mashallah!!!

Great poems sis!!! Loved everyone of them. I'm not a person who's fond of poems that much, but I've loved every one of yours...:up:

Why not write any jolly poems once in a while? for a bit of a change? :)

[Irfan GBH]

:rubeyes: I never thought you'd be back again!

[lonely_me]

MG & Small sis, Thank you both, I appreciate it. Irfan, never be so sure... about anything.

[Chained_Water]

:shock:

it's lonely me :love: :love:

:salams sis.. wow, mashaAllah, good to see you around!

hope you're well :)

[.: Anna :.]

lonely meeeeee!!! how are u sis? how is everything? how are ur babies? i heard that u had twins is that correct?

[lonely_me]

Chained_Water & Anna, Yes. It's me. I'm well. Thank you. Yes.

[MG]

Chained_Water & Anna, Yes. It's me. I'm well. Thank you. Yes.


aww mashallah @ twins, boys ? girls? boy+girl? :inlove:

[.: Anna :.]

Chained_Water & Anna, Yes. It's me. I'm well. Thank you. Yes.

u shud come in sis forum and update us all what u have been doing, how is everything in life etc.
we missed u!

[lonely_me]

Boys; Omar and Ali. AlhamduliAllah

[MG]

Boys; Omar and Ali. AlhamduliAllah


mashallah sis, pics please (if u can that is) mabrooks!

[.: Anna :.]

masha allah :love:

[Small Sis]

Aaaawww!!!! Twins!!!

May Allah bless them!!!! :inlove: