Bitter and angry

[Bitternangry]

Assalam Alaikum. I find myself in a very hard, trying, and bitter situation. There are days when I see hope and a way out and then there are days like today where I get angry and guilty. Angry at Allah (swt) for not helping me and guilty because I realize how many blessings He (SWT) has given me. Honestly, today I caught myself asking for death and then I realized that Muslims aren't supposed to ask for it. I can't even feel angry without the guilt.

Every avenue I've tried to get out of this situation leads to disappointment. I feel at this point almost scared to be optimistic because I've been crushed so many times before.

I sometimes think of how pious Uthman (RA) (3rd Khalifah) was and how he died. If such a pious man got murdered by a mob, what's the hope for me. If Allah (swt) allowed Uthman (RA) to be killed in such a fashion... where is the mercy in that? I know that Uthman (RA) will insh'allah attain paradise but at the same time, I can't wrap my head around the way Allah (swt) allowed him to die.

I feel like rebelling against Allah (swt) but at the same time I want to be closer to Him (swt). Please make du'a for me. Jazakhallah Khair.

[dhakiyya]

if you only look at what happens in this life then it does seem unfair. However Allah rewards those who endure suffering with patience in the next life, and Allah has the highest rewards who die whilst doing righteous deeds for His sake.

this life isn't fair, but Allah is the perfect judge, whoever does an atoms weight of good will see it, whoever does an atoms weight of evil will see it.

Read the Qur'an, especially any of the surahs about the rewards for the righeous servants of Allah, and the rewards for those who endure suffering with patience. I don't know the verses off the top of my head, inshaAllah someone else on this thread will post some examples, there are many!

[shariff2]

As-salaamoualaikum

I do not know exactly what your situation is, and I am not asking you to tell me either. However Islam is for all situations, happy and sad, bitter and angry.

I would like to point you to an article that I felt very inspiring whenever I was down, SABR AND SHUKR - http://books.themajlis.net/node/445. It is written by one of the great scholars of India, Maulana Ashraf Ali Thanvi (may Allah have mercy on him).

Some excerpts from this article:

"They lost not courage because of the hardships which confronted them in the Path of Allah. They were not weakened nor were they awed by the enemy. Allah Ta'ala loves such Saabireen (those who are steadfast and have patience)." (Surah Aale Imraan)"

" Hadhrat Abu Hurairah (ra) narrates that Rasulullah (saws) said:

A Muslim's sins are forgiven whenever he is overtaken by hardship and difficulty even if it be a thorn which pricks him. (Bukhaari, Muslim)"

Please read the article a few times for full effect and reflect on the verses of Quran and Hadith mentioned there.

Insha Allah this will help you in your difficulties.
Aaameen.

[My struggle]

I also suggest reading the threat "Struggle" which was initiated by me. There are some good encouraging stuff there. May Allah help all of us. Ameen

[the PATH TO]

bitterness and anger are natural spiritual diseases

we must aspire as we mature in life and develop maturity and spiritual discipline to rid ourselves of these diseases

one good remedy is to look at everything positive and good we have and the fact that some people have nothing of this world nor aakhirah

the more a muslim suffers WITH PATIENCE..the more he has to look forward to in the hereafter

the GREATEST OF TRIALS ARE/WERE FOR THE PROPHETS
THEN FOR THOSE CLOSEST TO THEM
THEN FOR THE BEST OF THE REST

this is a great comfort and a message to the PATIENT BELIEVERS of LOVE OF ALLAH

impatience and constant moaning of ones "woes",,decreases in the rewards of the aakhirah and allahs love..

dont let this happen ..inshaallah

[Bitternangry]

Thanks for making me feel good, guys.

[sad_guy]

Salam brothers and sisters,

I have contributed to this thread before with own disappointments and resentments. After doing a lot of soul searching and going through a lot of pain which sometimes felt like torture. I reflected on passed years and the hardships that I have seen and the painful outcomes of some of my major decisions. I realized that I was never a perfect human being and I had a lot of shortcomings which were not my fault but I realized I was blessed also with many qualities that somehow made me special just each one of you is specials in his/her own way. These faults and shortcomings contributed to many of my sufferings. My problem was that I blamed God for those shortcomings but forgot to thank him for his other blessings and I ignored most of his signs that he showed me which could have prevented a lot of my sufferings you know why because I was not faithful enough. I don't mean praying,fasting,etc which are important things but what I mean is the real faith in GOD, the faith that fills your heart with love and respect to the greatest creator , the one and only. had I kept my faith I am sure I would have been in different situation now. God did all the good things for me and I myself ALONE responsible of my own suffering. This could have been a lesson for me that drawn me closer to God after years of lip service faith. now I have, and hopefully will continue to be, faith in my GOD and i hope that he would forgive all my sins and resentment which were because of lack of knowledge and impatience. I still feel the pain of the things that I lost but i am looking toward the future with a lot of hope and faith that it would be better and i could regain what I have lost just like prophet ayoob although I not even close to what he was.

Brothers and sisters, look at your own life and find faith and you will see that God did nothing wrong, he is absolutely great and I love him so much. Just fix your life and learn and be patient and sometimes the bad things that hurts us are actually blessings in disguise.

Have faith and then pray and I hope you and me can see the difference.

God bless you all

salamu alaikum