Ummi123
04-12-07, 04:04 PM
I no we shud be dutiful and just to your parents..but each time i try and be nice and caring she take advantage of me and i regret being nice and caring. I no for a fact ma doesn't like me. . She always accuses me doing good deeds for otha ppls sake n not Allah's sake..that really gets to me, i mean y shud i do good deeds for otha pplz sake what benefit will i get? . I admit in my past yes i have been rude and ungrateful, but that was only because she treated me exactly the same. So i thot treat her the way she treats u- but that didn't help.
Its only when i proper came into the fold of Islam that i actually controlled my temper and learned to let go and forgive. But i don't no if i can keep forgiving her, wen she repeats her nasty attitude towards me. SubhanAllah, the looks she gives me, the lies and accusation - She has a habit of blaming me make wen sum stuff go rong..makes me think wat did i ever do to her that was soo bad. Wallahi i cant of anything. Cuz i wud not treat my mom badly without a purpose or reason, who would? The point is i dont no if i can carry on forgiving and acting as if 'nothin ever happened' ..i am really sensitive and its vry easy to hurt n make me cry. I tried my best to do my part and be a good daughter and muslim but shes not willing to be a good mother. I dont want to be a bad servant of Allah and do stuff like shouting back at my mom, swearing etc but she is putting me on the verge of doing it. Tha was my past life wen i only had a title of a Muslim..now i wanna be a true Muslim n i no part of being a true muslim is birrrul walaydayn....so wat do i do?
Its only when i proper came into the fold of Islam that i actually controlled my temper and learned to let go and forgive. But i don't no if i can keep forgiving her, wen she repeats her nasty attitude towards me. SubhanAllah, the looks she gives me, the lies and accusation - She has a habit of blaming me make wen sum stuff go rong..makes me think wat did i ever do to her that was soo bad. Wallahi i cant of anything. Cuz i wud not treat my mom badly without a purpose or reason, who would? The point is i dont no if i can carry on forgiving and acting as if 'nothin ever happened' ..i am really sensitive and its vry easy to hurt n make me cry. I tried my best to do my part and be a good daughter and muslim but shes not willing to be a good mother. I dont want to be a bad servant of Allah and do stuff like shouting back at my mom, swearing etc but she is putting me on the verge of doing it. Tha was my past life wen i only had a title of a Muslim..now i wanna be a true Muslim n i no part of being a true muslim is birrrul walaydayn....so wat do i do?