gravity
20-09-07, 11:48 AM
really wished to tie a knot and start a new life but when nothing hsppened i dropped the plan.then a proposal came i was very happy and prayed day and night that the reply is in the positive.later one night i realised that i should not pray this way so i prayed that whatever is good for me should happen.The next morning i got a positive reply but before that in the fajr i prayed that if the reply is positive,it should never bcum negative later.my family was very happy.The same night i thanked Allah for giving me this happiness.The next day it bcame confirmed.Then marriage shopping began.Everybody instilled hoped in me.it bcame a part of life.now i couldn't think in negative.But from day 1 when i prayed istikharah, the answer was that this is not a good proposal.I told my family and relatives they said don't bother dreams,istikharah is a dua that requests Allah if this is good should happen or else distance it from me.i believed them dreams were different and in reality everything was proceeding.but one day due to some reason,the proposal broke up.it was because of a cdtn tht the other side had placed.that cdtn was reasonable.but my parents did not agree.b4 all this i prayed Quraan and i saw a line that if Allah takes something ,He will give something better.That day i tried to control myself and believed in what was seen.but now after 15 days iam unable to control myself.i ask Allah y did all this happen with me.on that day i really wanted to put my head on someones shoulder and cry but being a girl how can i cry for a boy.I know what Allah has done is for my best and i believe His words but iam unable to forget anything.