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M.H.Mubarak
03-03-03, 08:24 AM
As Salamu Alaikum.

When I was a young man I experienced several "Spiritual Awakenings". They overtake you all of a sudden, and the way you perceive things, although the same... has changed. Horizions have been expanded and you can "See" further.

My first was in the Presbyterian Church in my hometown. At that time I was contemplating entering the ministry. It was the Sunday after Easter, and the pews were more than half empty. The minister was using the analogy of an archer shooting an arrow at a bullseye target, and that most of the gentry, while shooting at the target, they "were falling wide of the mark." At that instant the Truth of what he said hit me like a ton of bricks. For no apparent reason tears were welling up in my eyes and my nose began to run. Finding no tissue in my pocket, I had to rumple up my program to blow my nose. As he rambled on on the shortcomings of this and that, I realized that even though he uttered these words that triggered this response, he himself was falling wide of the mark. My perception of things was expanded and I could see "outside of the box". Needless to say, I did not go through with pursuing the ministry.

My second was in, Massachusset's Cape Cod Bay, on a beach in the town of Dennis. It was just about sunrise, and I was up and walking on the beach. As the sun came up over the bay, the royal blue color of the water became alive with billions of firey gold specks of light, refecting off the waves. This triggered the second event. It was a joyous surge,full of love and marvel, that rushed my consciousness into experiencing every atom of creation being interconnected. If anyone saw me dancing and singing on the beach, they would have thought me to be a madman. But, I could have cared less. The rush soon subsided and ever since, I could never see the sky in the same way.

Which brings me to a song that I have just heard called "Twilight"

It is on Vanessa Carlton's first relased CD “ Be not Nobody”,cut 11. "Twilight" Arranged and Conducted by Randy Kerber [Rosasharn Publishing/Universal Music,(BMI)] is an extremely beautiful piece of music.


"Twilight

I was stained, with a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew, what was right
I just didn’t know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

[SISE=1]Chorus[/SIZE]

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen,
cause I’ve seen, twilight

never cared never wanted
never sought to see what flaunted
so on purpose so in my face
couldn’t see beyond my own face
couldn’t see beyond my own place
it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
but you taught me I could change
whatever came within these shallow days

[SISE=1]Chorus[/SIZE]

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen,
cause I’ve seen…

as the sun shines through it pushes away
and pushes ahead
it fills the warmth of blue
and leaves a chill instead and
I didn’t know that I could be
so blind to all that is so real
but as illusion dies
I see there is so much to be revealed

[SISE=1]Chorus[/SIZE]

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen,
cause I’ve seen, twilight

I was stained, by a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew, what was right
I just didn’t know that I might
peel away and choose to see
with such a different sight

[SISE=1]Chorus[/SIZE]

and I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down,
and I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen,
cause I’ve seen, twilight"

I always knew, what was rightI just didn’t know that I might peel away and choose to see with such a different sight
There is a saying: "The human heart is like a mirror covered with rust, which needs to be polished to reflect Allah's inner Light"

Every being possesses inner Peace. Many of us can not get there. We need to peel off layers of rust to allow the POWER OF PEACE to be "activated" in our daily lives. However, I will save that topic for another post.

Spiritual awakenings are happening all the time. They lead us down the path toward the Truth of Allahu ta’ala, whether we are conscious of it or not.

Has anbody else some experience they would like to share?

Bubblefish
04-03-03, 09:56 AM
The most recent expriance that I have had was in relation to the beginning of OS 012.

Most of it is incredibly personal and I am afraid I will fail to really describe anything in proper detail.

But what is certain about this experiance was the observation of the synronicity of everything around me and how everything around me is communicating to everything else.

When I then obeserved my own role in this process, it was quite illuminating indeed.

Even my 'mistakes' that I thought I was making and even my own 'doubts' or 'failed attempts' were a part of a much grander tapestry that was just as equally as important as everything else.

ALways greater above and lesser below.

Even the squirell in my courtyard, even a wrong phone call, even a fly buzzing by was in complete communion with all my thoughts and actions, which were also in complete communion with the whole and the all.

Seeing and experianceing this vast ocean of AWE was quite humbling, increadibly and even eroticaly beautiful at times.

I was looking at and bearing witness to all sides winning all the time.

This state of being was so powerful, it's last big peak lasted a few weeks, I was even scared sometimes because I felt that if it became anymore beautiful, I would dissappear!

I have always had difficulty crying, but I was crying a few times a day then..

ANd it is still going on too, but I think I have kind of numbed myself a bit to it because it was so overwhelming to deal with day in and day out

I surrendered daily to the experiance, and it is also always there for me too, does this make sense?

THis experiances are very difficult for me to express objectivly, they truly require art to fulfill there expression.

Now, M.H. Mubarak, when I look at those Arabic letters in your tag do you know what I see?

I dont know anything about Arabic, but when I look at those letters arranged the way that they are in your graphic, and the colors, I see that experiance I had in them.

And I dont know why , I dont know what those letters mean, but they look like what I was looking at, but i did not see any letters, does this make sense?

Anyway, I cant get those letters out of my head since I saw them on your post when I first came here.

I was going to ask you about that privatly, but it just came out here so maybe then it should have!


Anyway, this is the most vulnerable post your gonna get outa Bubblefish on a public BBS (smile)

OK, back in charachter!
haha

Bubblefish

M.H.Mubarak
04-03-03, 08:15 PM
Bubblefish,

My avatar is Islamic Calligraphy: "Bismillah Ar-Rahman Nir-Rahim"
which as you probably know by now means: "In the Name of Allah, The Most Merciful, the Beneficent"

It is one of the highest art forms in Islam. There are many beautiful caligraphic renditions of Ayats from Quran.

I don't know if you can download this, but if you can, it is quite spectacular.

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